Prayer for Conversion

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I struggle a lot with instability. I lost my job three weeks ago and I can’t find similar work where I live, and I have been struggling with mental stability lately because being at home makes me crazy. I have problems with scrupulosity, OCD and depression but one of my biggest problems is that any time I am presented with Christ’s call to take up my cross and follow him, I recoil and plunge into anger, anxiety, frustration and despair, unable to give up myself wholly to a life of self-denial. I feel like I’m following Christ on my own terms, that he isn’t the Lord of my life, and which means that I’m not converted. I need to enter into communion with the Catholic Church, and I have resolved to enter RCIA, but the worst part is that I don’t have recourse to the sacraments, and I have to wait until March 7 before my parish even has inquiry sessions which are necessary for me to take. I wish I could confess my sins to a Priest, because lately I’ve been tormented about having committed the unpardonable sin against the Spirit. I’ve been saying the Rosary and attending mass regularly, but that only goes so far, and I still feel like I haven’t entered through the eye of the needle yet, and I may not be able to until conversion.

I wanted to offer up my issues to the prayer warriors on this forum. I thank you for praying for my Grandmother, and now I was wondering if you could pray for me. I am afraid of driving more of my friends away with my problems, and I really need God’s help, especially help with reorienting my desires and will to actually love him and the cross for my own good.

I thank you all very much, and I thank you for your prayers.
 
Bdonoho, have prayed for you.

Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion - inexhaustible,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself.

Amen.
 
Praying hard for you to find happiness, peace of mind and a good job.
 
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†
 
Lord, please grant Bdonoho many graces to cultivate in life joy, faith, hope, and love. With divine light, illuminate great paths for this soul, to navigate through the murkiness of this fallen world. Grant so many angels to protect and help this soul at all times. Accept every suffering and joy of Bdonoho’s in union with your saving work. Lead this soul toward the eternal garden of peace, now, unto eternity. Have mercy, Lord. Our Lady, angels, and saints, pray with us. Amen.
 
Are you offering up your suffering to God in atonement for sins? Do you realize how many people could probably be freed from purgatory if you, and others of us out there, would do this?

Anyway, I’m assuming you’ve been in treatment for the OCD and such.

I’m really glad you’re trying to get into RCIA. :clapping:

What you might consider doing in the meantime, would be to go to the Blessed Sacrament and do some “Spiritual Communion”. :signofcross:

ewtn.com/devotionals/prayers/blsac4.htm

Some saints, such as Padre Pio, actually recommended even to us, who can receive the sacraments, to do those in addition, saying they are highly pleasing to Our Lord.

The rosary is wonderful, as well. There are the Stations of the Cross, chaplets, like the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, Chaplet of St. Michael. There is the Rosary of the 7 Sorrows of Mary, as well.

Are you also starting to use sacramentals…like wearing a scapular, using holy water?

There’s, of course, reading scripture or books on the lives of the saints. Your local public library may even have some.

When one’s suffering, another thing is to read, or even reread, the Book of Job. It’s really short but helps us to understand more about suffering, why God allows it.

Anyway, I’ll close with a prayer.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blest is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. :angel1:
 
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Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory Be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning is now ever shall be world without end
Amen.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy, hear and answer me. Amen

:signofcross:
 
I could be completely wrong about this, but I recently ran across something that said a priest will hear an aspiring Catholic’s prayers under certain conditions. I don’t know if that is true.

Since I work with teens that have this and other conditions I feel compelled to ask you this:
Have you seen a doctor about your OCD? There are medications around that could ease your symptoms.

Clearwater had some great ideas, I keep a small bottle of Holy water with me at all times. I have prayer candles, do you have a home shrine/ alter / prayer corner in your house? There are all sorts of ideas about this on the web.

Consider calling the United Way’s help line. I think the number is 211. Consider performing small acts of charity and kindness, many of which wont cost you a dime. Consider reading the written word daily along with the Rosary. Reading religious works is a part of our Catholic duty. * Ask the saints to pray on your behalf.
Blessings - esieffe

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy.

Our Father, Who art in heaven hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death.
Amen.*
 
Thank you all for your prayers and suggestions. I ran out of holy water and I intend to get more soon, even today. A prayer shrine would also be a good idea. Right now, I think i might be in mortal sin, and I have been trying to do an act of perfect contrition. What I really need are the sacraments, but since I don’t have access to those, I was going to go to Mass today since it is usually there that I receive spiritual healing and the will to follow Christ.

I’m reticent about reading books unless my priest or someone that I trust who knows me recommends them. I don’t process things the way I ought to process them. Thank you all for your prayers and intercessions.
 
Praying that the Lord may guide you and give you strength for your trials.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!
 
Thank you all for your prayers,
I wanted to add something that has been going on recently. I have been reading the Magnificat daily readings for Advent, and it has been making me wonder about the Old and New Testament, namely, were the Jews correct about Jesus. While I still maintain my faith, it is difficult to hold onto, and sometimes I doubt whether I am receiving my faith from the Holy Spirit, or whether I am merely following the imagination of my own heart, and my own desires for Jesus to be true. It’s been really dark, and I wanted to ask for your sincere prayers.
 
Hail Mary, full of grace,
the Lord is with thee.
Blessed are you among women,
and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.
 
I believe that I am in mortal sin, and that I’ve been like the foolish Virgin who waited too long to fill her lamp. I am not Catholic yet, and last night I was completely uncertain that Jesus was the Messiah and was seeking forgiveness from God only based on what I knew from the Old Testament, that He’s a God of Mercy and Compassion. I don’t know how I could have been so blind if the Holy Spirit was in me, and I pray that I won’t delude myself anymore, I need the sacraments and I need to stop love being simple and relying on consolations, impressions and sentiments.
 
Hail Mary, full of grace,
the Lord is with Thee
Blessed art Thou amongst women
and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners.
Now and at the hour of our death,

Amen.

BTW…
Here is my advice.
  1. Constantly work to give your worries and anxiety to God (I know this is hard and can take years to make progress… or it could happen instantly).
  2. Make a perfect Act of Contrition (God’s grace can allow this to happen)… make this prayer at least once per day! Put your hope, trust, and mercy into the Blood of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!
  3. Keep attending Mass and praying!
  4. Seek consoling from a trusted soul who can share your struggles. Continue seeking prayers from others.
  5. Smile! God loves you!! 🙂
 
I just want to say that I’m embarrassed to post something like this because it really exposes how unstable I am right now. I was praying tonight and thinking about the immaculate Conception and how the Orthodox rejected it. I was thinking of stuff like how if Mary was without original sin then wouldn’t it have meant l she wouldn’t have gotten old and stuff like that. Then I thought of how Orthodoxy doesn’t teach this doctrine. In spite of my personal preference for Roman Catholicism, I have been drawn to Orthodoxy because of how austere they appear to be and I’ve always been drawn to more rigorous people out of fear of being wrong and preferring my own comfort to the truth. Then I read about the schism between New Calendarists and Old Calendarists and when the Old Calendarists said something about Christian unity similar to what other Protestants have said (that its unity in truth and confession of faith) I found myself resisting this as too hard and almost hopeless and I thought “God **** the Holy Spirit”). I’m afraid I consented to it (not with all my heart, but it definitely was not just a pop up thought) because I really felt I was resisting what the Spirit was revealing.

I’m really afraid now and I am asking anyone has a chance to to pray that God would forgive me for my hardness of heart, and preference to pursuing comfort and the easier path instead of the harder path. I’m afraid of being Eastern Orthodox but if its the Truth I have to do it.
 
Praying that the Lord may strengthen you and guide you in discerning the Truth.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen
 
Tonight I wasn’t able to persevere under pressure. I had this really stressful thing happen and I lost faith in God’s help and got mad at God and the Holy Spirit. It would seem that whatever faith I thought I had wasn’t genuine, and I wanted to ask for your prayers. I’m not despairing because I haven’t received the sacraments yet, and I believe that when that happens, I won’t be so much like the Disciples in the Gospels before they received the Holy Spirit, losing faith, getting anxious and generally being so fair weather in my devotion to the Lord. I wanted to ask for prayer that I might receive conversion from the person that I am and that I might become the person I was made to be.
 
Praying that the Lord may grant you the graces for conversion that you are seeking. Also praying that he may strengthen you and guide you.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen
 
Hey guys. I just wanted to let you all know that I’m going through the process of inquiry at my parish, with the intention of finally entering RCIA. I just wanted to ask for prayer, as I am always in need of God’s mercy and conversion, particularly in dealing with loving the truth and forsaking worldliness. I also wanted to offer up intentions for my 2 catholic friends who have converted to Calvinistic Protestantism, as well as a catholic converting to Eastern Orthodoxy and another friend who seems to be in danger of being influenced by them. Please pray for them and the people praying for thier conversion, that God would reveal His truth to us and grant all of us repentance and faith in Him.

Thank you all so much for your prayers and intercession. God bless you all with many graces and perseverance.

Our Father…

Hail Mary…
 
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