Prayer for Healing

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I have spent my whole life beneath the cloud of a past which is the stuff of nightmares. A past that has made me unable to look, see, or feel anything without a tainted lense. It has cost me much, not the least of which was when I walked away from Christ and into Paganism and has created a lifelong struggle against Lust, Pride, and desire for Power. For a decade, starting at the tender age of 6 I was the victim of incestous rape, beatings, torture, and multiple attempts on my life.

I was neglected and left unprotected by my mother, victomized by an achoholic step father whom would use the belt on all of us in the middle of the night for something as innocent as someone sticking a finger and trying some icing on a cake. My step sister had some strange jealously of me and due to being physically weaker was pushed around by her and watched my brother depart for Denial. I was victomized again when that same family tried to force me to deal with my tormenter and endure the chance that while staying a night with them there was a chance I might be there alone with him in a house out in the middle of nowhere.

The fallout from years of controlling my life (due to Autism, against my wishes and by ignorence at the time of my rights or the fact that I was my own guardian I was thrown into Assisted Living and I did not even get to take the SAT inspite of the fact that I got an IQ of 186) and the neglect during the time I actually needed them ended in a horrific night where he had been given a key and in the middle of the night when I had work the next day and I did not answer the banging on the door he walked right in and I had to hide before taking off and hiding till my fiance’s mom could come get me has ended in the severing of ties between myself and the family I grew up with.

My brother not only took their side but is utterly cruel with it, tormenting me and blaming me the few times he can find me on net. Yet after everything, all the pain and that incredible rage, I don’t want nor need to be ruled nor everything that I do be fueled by that anger anymore. I want to be able to offer the Lord as I join His Church my life and be filled with His Love. To be able to truly forgive the person who hurt me and the people who committed their own crimes. Even as I write I feel that bitterness, and yet there is this desire since I have returned to Christ and after our Lady brought me back to her Son to be able to see past those deeds and be able to see them and to love them as Christ loves them.

The toll that the Past has caused can not be measured, and it is time now to remove the snare by which the Devil was able to become enslaved by anger, lust, and pride. To be able to nolonger use that anger when I am reaching out in the Purpose that God placed me here for. I want to be a vessel in which Christ and our Lady pour out their Love. And when it comes to my fellows on the Spectrum, there is nothing I would not do to be able to put into place the tools that would enable them to have a life of their own, something that is taken for granted by those who do not know what it is like to have a label dictate how others treat you or how you are percieved or the ability to have said life. I love each and every one of them and I see the incredible untapped resources and gifts that could better the world and I want to be able to give them an Advocate that fights out of Love and show so many who never knew God and are so lost in despair.

I am praying the Chaplet of Saint Maria Goretti, who with Saint Rita of Cascia and Saint Monica have given me such a feeling of hope that I will be able to let go of the Past and I will be able to love my Abuser and in forgiving him that he too may turn towards the Lord along with my family. I am asking you to please, pray this Chaplet who’s link is below once for me. That as I prepare to enter into the Catholic faith I can be set free of the Darkness and embrace the Living Light. Your prayers are URGENT right now. Having severe PTSD, my fiance’s troubled sister provoked a violent meltdown in him (he is also Autistic, meltdowns are not under our control. Prevention and learning the signs are key) that was bad enough that he went after her.

Provoking an Aspie in a meltdown when they are in what is best described as a temporary mania or phsycosis can end in more than broken items and when he reacted to her it triggered the PTSD which was fueled by that rage when having been accused of stealing meds and using dark magick against her only to find the next day when she had been kicked out of the house the medicine that she accused me of taking and a spell that is a HUGE no-no even for pagans (love spells that are specific and take away the target’s free will) causing it to nearly have me loose myself into meltdown myself. I have been locked into Night Terrors, night after night of memories and reliving all to real and vivid the Past. It has brought back the Anxiety and drew up the old self loathing and the old stand by of attacking myself.

I find relief attending Mass and RCIA and speaking with Saint Maria Goretti, but this is a downward spiral that I need your aid in getting out of. Please use the link, say the Chaplet once for me and you will have my eternal gratitude.

rosaryandchaplets.com/chaplets/st_maria_goretti_prayer.html

-St. Aleydis Calls
 
Praying hard for you. You are a beautiful soul. May God bless you always. Stay close to Jesus and His Most Holy Mother.
 
Hail Mary
Full of Grace
The Lord is with Thee.
Blessed are thou among women,
And Blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.
 
We offer our prayers for Aleydis’ healing, and for the growth of her hope and trust in God’s Love and His Will. We’ve been reading The Gift of Inner Healing, by Ruth Carter Stapleton, who was a sister of Pres.Carter–not Catholic–but her belief in sharing our pain, fear, illness, or anger with Jesus is very nicely expressed and I think very likely to be helpful to many, whether alone or with a prayer partner.
 
I will say this chaplet for you, St. Aleydis Calls. While I was reading your story, I was very much struck of how I might actually know the right people to help you. They are a nonprofit Catholic ministry group in my area who specialize in healing and deliverance. They have my archdiocese’s approval and they are run by volunteers. They pray with you and over you for incidents of trauma, abuse, occult practices, etc. I THINK they could do phone consultations, but you could double check. If you are interested, PM me. In the meantime, I will say that chaplet. God bless!
 
Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

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Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†
 
Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
 
Your prayers mean alot to me in my hour of need! May God, our Lady, and His Holy Angels keep you and His Saints keep us all in their prayers before the throne that we be delivered from the snares of the Evil One and be set free of the Dark that lingers in the hearts of Men.

Amen.

-St. Aleydis Calls
 
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and in the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
 
Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy.

Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle;
be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray:
and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly host,
by the power of God,
thrust into hell Satan and all the evil spirits
who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.
Amen.*

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.
Amen.

Oh Blessed Virgin Mary, conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee!

Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us.
Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.
St. Joseph, pray for us.
St. Jude, patron saint of causes despaired of, pray for us.
 
Prayed the Chaplet of St. Maria Goretti for you. Also praying that the Lord may grant you strength and all necessary graces.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!
 
O most glorious Prince, Michael the Archangel, be mindful of us, here and everywhere: pray always unto the Son of God for us, Alleluia, Alleluia.

V. In the sight of Angels I will sing to Thee, O God.
R. I will worship facing Thy holy temple and confess Thy name.

O God, who in a marvelous order hast established the ministries of angels and of men, mercifully grant that as Thy holy Angels ever do Thee service in heaven, so at all times they may succor us here upon earth. Through our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
 
May your heart always be
the temple of the Holy Spirit.
May Jesus always be the helmsman
of your little spiritual ship.
May Mary be the star
which shines on your path
and may she show you the safe way
to reach the Heavenly Father.
Amen.
 
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