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bernadetteph
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I feel that I made a string of bad life decisions that dragged me into my present situation and for the longest time, I have never spoken of this struggle with the people dearest to me due to these reasons: (1) they think that I have consistently lived a blameless life and am doing well that they never asked if I were fine; (2) whenever I try to open up, they start talking and so I end up listening to their rants; and (3) I feel that they have far bigger problems that bugging them about mine won’t make any difference. I grew uncomfortable of letting people know how I feel for I evade hearing general, scripted and insincere advices and fear being misjudged.
I left an important matter in the past unsettled. I thought I could get away with it, but it brought my life to stagnation, and then I became too afraid to move. I just have to return to that place, face those people, accomplish my task, then I will be free of this burden. Yet I am too afraid to create a commotion. I am too afraid to be judged. I am too afraid to fail. I like to ask God for signs if doing this is the right thing to do, but I just don’t know what specifically to ask. What if He does not intend to send signs and wants me to just do it? I need the courage to do it. I know that the only choice I have is face this fear and only after overcoming this fearful state will I be able to take the next bigger steps. Moreover, I need faith in His promise for my life.
My friends, pardon the lengthiness and vagueness of my post. Please pray for me. God bless you all.
I left an important matter in the past unsettled. I thought I could get away with it, but it brought my life to stagnation, and then I became too afraid to move. I just have to return to that place, face those people, accomplish my task, then I will be free of this burden. Yet I am too afraid to create a commotion. I am too afraid to be judged. I am too afraid to fail. I like to ask God for signs if doing this is the right thing to do, but I just don’t know what specifically to ask. What if He does not intend to send signs and wants me to just do it? I need the courage to do it. I know that the only choice I have is face this fear and only after overcoming this fearful state will I be able to take the next bigger steps. Moreover, I need faith in His promise for my life.
My friends, pardon the lengthiness and vagueness of my post. Please pray for me. God bless you all.