Prayer needed for me- Despair

[rayne100]

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I don’t think that i would be able to convince you that he is truly a good person. That he has been working so hard to get well and get help.

They published our address in the news paper so all of my neighbors know now. the kids in the area taunt him when he goes outside… We have not been able to do yard work on our own yard for almost two years, nevermind having family over for a barb q.

I don’t invite anyone over anymore, because I cannot be sure that one of the kids (all ages) will not make a scene for us being outside. Very few of my friends know about the situation and I would rather they didn’t until we tell them.

I’m just loosing it. I have had to be strong for so long that the weight of this is pressing very hard on me right now.
Please pray that they do what is in the best interest of his mental health istead of giving a cookie cutter judgement.
Pray that the right people will be put in our path to do the best thing for everyone involved. Pray that the jury will be open minded enough to consider the forensic psychologists prognosis.
PLease pray that I have the strenght and the wisdom to comfort his tortured mind in the best way I can.

 

[Mamastrocity]

I read your plight…

…and I am STILL going to pray for you both.

Only God knows what is in his heart and it’s not for any of us to judge–only for God.

Trust that whatever suffering that you and DF may face in the future because of this situation, you can put it toward something good by offering it up to our Lord.

 

[rayne100]

I read your plight…

…and I am STILL going to pray for you both.

Only God knows what is in his heart and it’s not for any of us to judge–only for God.

Trust that whatever suffering that you and DF may face in the future because of this situation, you can put it toward something good by offering it up to our Lord.

Thank you so much for your prayers! And your attempt at understanding.
I pray that God’s will be done, not mine. I know that I have been put through this ordeal to learn a lesson and so has he.

 

[johannahw]

I’m praying for both of you as well. I don’t know what its like to be schizophrenic but I struggle with severe mental illness (bipolar disorder) and understand its own brand of pain and anguish.
JOhannah

 

[ltbpoe43]

Continued prayers for you both. We are not here to judge but to strengthen you on this journey. Keep strong in your faith and continue your support. It sounds like you are doing all the right things even if it is a heavy cross to carry.

God Bless you both and may the compassion of others move them to assist you both legally, medically, and spiritually.

 

[Michael_Howard]

I really need your prayers right now, my life seems to be rapidly falling apart. Everything I know and love is about to slip away and there isn’t anything I can do about it but pray for strength and peace and hope.
I’m too upset right now to go into it, but I could really use some prayers for me and especially my fiance who is facing some serious consequenses.

I am angry right now and very frustrated and feeling hopeless. The system that I had so much faith in has failed him and in turn us…
I know I am being very cryptic right now but to be honest, If I tell you the situation, I don’t think you would really understand.

Please, I am on the verge of I don’t know what- a breakdown, giving up, something, but I am barely keeping it together and I really need to because I have to be strong for my fiance.

God help him, God help me, God Help my family, we need strength, peace, hope and trust to get through this part of our journey. Help us make it through despair.

I’m going to spend some time in prayer for you this afternnon, I can really feel your pain and disappointment from reading your post. A few years ago my family suffered a terrible tradgedy that almost destroyed us all, the pain of this situtation will be there for the rest of our lives.

I was talking with my mom a few days back and going over the situtaion now that several years have passed and I could see the pain welling up in her. But she asked me an interesting question, she said, “what is the message in all of this”? I awkwardly thought of a few “christian-eze” type responses but realized they were failing to make any impact and simply making things awkward. I find it frustrating that my words can not bring comfort or somehow make it ok.

I heard this song a few days ago, and though I usually do not like this type of music the words went straight to my heart and I just broke because I realized *this was the message. *This line really speaks to my heart:

*This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held *

Being human I naturally want relief from my pain and I want others to be released from all pain, especially those closest to me, but that cannot be in this life and I’m slowly learning to let go
and trust that I’m being held and loved even when life breaks me down completely, my joy must be deeper than my pain and loss.

So I found a video on youtube after hearning the song and it is equally powerful:

youtube.com/watch?v=h2m1HZekCcc

It’s heart wrentching, but I needed to see this. I hope this helps a bit. Praying for you and your finance today.

 

[rayne100]

I’m going to spend some time in prayer for you this afternnon, I can really feel your pain and disappointment from reading your post. A few years ago my family suffered a terrible tradgedy that almost destroyed us all, the pain of this situtation will be there for the rest of our lives.

I was talking with my mom a few days back and going over the situtaion now that several years have passed and I could see the pain welling up in her. But she asked me an interesting question, she said, “what is the message in all of this”? I awkwardly thought of a few “christian-eze” type responses but realized they were failing to make any impact and simply making things awkward. I find it frustrating that my words can not bring comfort or somehow make it ok.

I heard this song a few days ago, and though I usually do not like this type of music the words went straight to my heart and I just broke because I realized *this was the message. *This line really speaks to my heart:

*This is what it means to be held *
*How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life *
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved
*And to know that the promise was *
*When everything fell we’d be held *

Being human I naturally want relief from my pain and I want others to be released from all pain, especially those closest to me, but that cannot be in this life and I’m slowly learning to let go
and trust that I’m being held and loved even when life breaks me down completely, my joy must be deeper than my pain and loss.

So I found a video on youtube after hearning the song and it is equally powerful:

youtube.com/watch?v=h2m1HZekCcc

It’s heart wrentching, but I needed to see this. I hope this helps a bit. Praying for you and your finance today.

Michael Howard,
Thank you so much for your post. This video literally had be sobbing. It is so true and so real. I don’t usally like this kind of music either but I think that this song in particular really spoke to me.
Thank you for your prayers and for sharing this with me.
I will continue to pray.

 

[the_phoenix]

Dear rayne100,

Continued prayers for you and your fiance.

Having worked in a group home in the past, I met a client there whom I deeply cared about. This client had a heart of gold, attended a church service on Sunday, was helpful around the house beyond belief, … and was paranoid/schizophrenic. When the medication dosage was correct, all was well. When it wasn’t correct … long story short so that I won’t get personal about a former client, I was there to witness it. So I can understand your feelings on some small level.

Have faith! Stay strong!

~~ the phoenix

 

[Michael_Howard]

Michael Howard,
Thank you so much for your post. This video literally had be sobbing. It is so true and so real. I don’t usally like this kind of music either but I think that this song in particular really spoke to me.
Thank you for your prayers and for sharing this with me.
I will continue to pray.

Yes, it has had the same effect on me, I have the lyrics printed on the wall. The story behind the song is chilling as well and so beautiful. I will continue to pray for you and your finance. May the peace of Christ rest on you this night.