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JLCecilia
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Please pray for DH and I today on our 4th anniversary and for all married couples. I had wanted for us to attend mass together this morning, but DH is ill again, so I just popped in to light a candle. As I walked to the front, I saw a woman there with the 4 oldest of her 7 home-schooled grandchildren attending daily mass and I found myself once again praying for God to hasten the day that DH would make enough money to sustain us and allow me to stay at home full time. I have given up on that prayer for some time and b/c of all the circumstances of this last year, my prayer life altogether has become very minimalistic, robotic and dry.
DH had asked me sometime earlier in the week if I had called his mother to arrange for child care today b/c he thought I wanted to go out to eat. I said no, I had no plans for today. Just feeling a bit like I want this day to just pass the same as any other day, but there are pangs of pain b/c it doesn’t feel special as it should be. DH is not the greatest about celebrating, I am normally the one who makes all of the arrangements and I just wasn’t up for it this time. I just didn’t see any reason to pretend for one day when every other day we’re like 2 ships passing in the night. Anyway, it’s a good thing I didn’t make plans b/c I would have had to cancel anyway which would hurt more than never having made plans to begin with. It is now past noon and DH is still in bed; probably won’t be home till after we’re all in bed and the day will pass without even having seen him at all. Just feels like perfect symbolism for our relationship right now.
We are still planning on attending Retrovaille on my birthday weekend in October. Please pray for us. DH has been doing better in the past few weeks all around and he has made comments to suggest that he wants to care for his health, but he really needs to see the dr once and for all. As sensitive as his body is to his eating schedule and what he eats, I can’t help wondering if he doesn’t have diabetes or crohn’s or something. Just wish he would get diagnosed already so we could get on with treatment.
Thanks to anyone who reads and prays.
DH had asked me sometime earlier in the week if I had called his mother to arrange for child care today b/c he thought I wanted to go out to eat. I said no, I had no plans for today. Just feeling a bit like I want this day to just pass the same as any other day, but there are pangs of pain b/c it doesn’t feel special as it should be. DH is not the greatest about celebrating, I am normally the one who makes all of the arrangements and I just wasn’t up for it this time. I just didn’t see any reason to pretend for one day when every other day we’re like 2 ships passing in the night. Anyway, it’s a good thing I didn’t make plans b/c I would have had to cancel anyway which would hurt more than never having made plans to begin with. It is now past noon and DH is still in bed; probably won’t be home till after we’re all in bed and the day will pass without even having seen him at all. Just feels like perfect symbolism for our relationship right now.
We are still planning on attending Retrovaille on my birthday weekend in October. Please pray for us. DH has been doing better in the past few weeks all around and he has made comments to suggest that he wants to care for his health, but he really needs to see the dr once and for all. As sensitive as his body is to his eating schedule and what he eats, I can’t help wondering if he doesn’t have diabetes or crohn’s or something. Just wish he would get diagnosed already so we could get on with treatment.
Thanks to anyone who reads and prays.