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Hello,
I am a young Catholic male. I am struggling severely with depression due to issues in my home, at my job, and at college. My family and I have very little money (there wasn’t a single gift under our Christmas tree this year). I was working full-time but quit the job to work part-time so I could go back to school - a decision I deeply regret, as it has left me in a rough spot financially. I have no idea what I was thinking. I had a good bit of money saved up from working, but my parents have borrowed thousands of dollars from me due to their own financial woes and have been unable to pay me back, leaving me financially crippled. The household I live in is also highly dysfunctional and rarely peaceful. I wish I had the money to move out, but I don’t.
I don’t like what I’m studying in school, but don’t know what to switch my major to, and have just had a generally bad experience in college thus far. But I’m too deep into it now to feel like quitting. I can’t have my old FT job back, either, which is a significant cause of my depression. I miss working full-time hours every day instead of only working 15 hours per week and being bored out of my mind on my days off, wishing I were at work. I miss my co-workers, and I regret giving up a good opportunity for what now feels like nothing. I could always look for a FT job elsewhere, but I’ve become so attached to my current job and am so scared that I’ll end up in a job I hate that I just can’t look for another job right now.
I have been seeing a counselor, but it hasn’t helped much. I also have a spiritual director, but sometimes I feel that he doesn’t know what to say in regards to my dilemma. But honestly, much of my dilemma feels as if it was my own fault, making me feel extremely guilty and disgusted with myself. I am not in any danger of harming myself because I know it is morally wrong to do so, but not a day goes by when I don’t wish death upon myself and that God would permit me to leave this earth early. This is the first time in my life that I’ve ever been depressed, and I’m so low that I hardly know what to do anymore. It’s hard for me to even muster the strength to pray sometimes.I am trying not to fall into despair, but it’s getting harder and harder for me not to.
I kindly ask you all to please pray for me. Please pray that my life situation improves, and that God will help me overcome my depression. Thank you.
I am a young Catholic male. I am struggling severely with depression due to issues in my home, at my job, and at college. My family and I have very little money (there wasn’t a single gift under our Christmas tree this year). I was working full-time but quit the job to work part-time so I could go back to school - a decision I deeply regret, as it has left me in a rough spot financially. I have no idea what I was thinking. I had a good bit of money saved up from working, but my parents have borrowed thousands of dollars from me due to their own financial woes and have been unable to pay me back, leaving me financially crippled. The household I live in is also highly dysfunctional and rarely peaceful. I wish I had the money to move out, but I don’t.
I don’t like what I’m studying in school, but don’t know what to switch my major to, and have just had a generally bad experience in college thus far. But I’m too deep into it now to feel like quitting. I can’t have my old FT job back, either, which is a significant cause of my depression. I miss working full-time hours every day instead of only working 15 hours per week and being bored out of my mind on my days off, wishing I were at work. I miss my co-workers, and I regret giving up a good opportunity for what now feels like nothing. I could always look for a FT job elsewhere, but I’ve become so attached to my current job and am so scared that I’ll end up in a job I hate that I just can’t look for another job right now.
I have been seeing a counselor, but it hasn’t helped much. I also have a spiritual director, but sometimes I feel that he doesn’t know what to say in regards to my dilemma. But honestly, much of my dilemma feels as if it was my own fault, making me feel extremely guilty and disgusted with myself. I am not in any danger of harming myself because I know it is morally wrong to do so, but not a day goes by when I don’t wish death upon myself and that God would permit me to leave this earth early. This is the first time in my life that I’ve ever been depressed, and I’m so low that I hardly know what to do anymore. It’s hard for me to even muster the strength to pray sometimes.I am trying not to fall into despair, but it’s getting harder and harder for me not to.
I kindly ask you all to please pray for me. Please pray that my life situation improves, and that God will help me overcome my depression. Thank you.
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