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MareP
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I know it may not be right to ask from God what i want and should concern myself more with praising God and have gratitude for what i do have and pray that his will be done. I am very distraught over my husband leaving me, I love him and want our marriage to work, He is a recovering alcoholic and has been sober since Nov. of 2005. I am greatful for his continued sobriety. He had double by pass in 2007. I have suffered from chronic headaches since 1991 after the birth of our two children. I began to suffer depression after my husband had a heart attack in 2000. I had been able to control it with medication until Nov. of 08. My symptoms returned quite seriously with empty nest syndrome and difficulty at work.in Nov. of 08. I took a month of in Feb of 09 to adjust to new medication and hopefully get my act together. I did not teach summer school as i always had due to more anxiety in May. In July my husband told me he no longer loved me and was tired of my illnesses and wanted out of our marriage. I asked him to try counseling with me and suggested Retrouville. He refuses any counseling. .I returned to work for this past school year. . I have always had difficulty in the job I have done for 20 years. I was unable to perform all the duties or aspects of the job. I prayed for help and guidance with my job teaching mentally handicapped. I feel guilt for collecting a paycheck for a job that i could not fulfill well… I prayed to God for guidance and help to do a better job at work and found myself having an increase in headaches and having panic attacks. My principle also chastised me for repeated absences due to headaches and seeking help from other teachers saying i should know my job well as i had been teaching for 20 years. The principal also referred to my health leave last year and asked “suggested” did i need to take another leave. I accepted this as a sign from God that maybe i was not suited to the job. I have taken medical leave again and really don’t know what to do with myself. I am going to counseling . We are also loosing our home due to my not working and other financial transgressions. I pray and am requesting prayer that God will bring my husband back to me and the healing of our marriage. I also request prayer that I may receive some understanding of Gods’ plan for me.