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wabasha12345
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Hi. Been refusing gods will for too long and dealing with selfishness.
I have tried prayer,fasting,confession and get selfish and and quit.
Also phycologists,phyciatrists,A.A. anonymous,celebrate recovery, and on and on…help others they say. Got it. Then laziness.
Obviously also have tried many illegal things drugs,drinking and driving,porn,tv addiction.
Also Being addict to others,self pity.
anyways keep refusing gods will.
So two options come to mind.
Thank you thank you thank you. Peace.
I have tried prayer,fasting,confession and get selfish and and quit.
Also phycologists,phyciatrists,A.A. anonymous,celebrate recovery, and on and on…help others they say. Got it. Then laziness.
Obviously also have tried many illegal things drugs,drinking and driving,porn,tv addiction.
Also Being addict to others,self pity.
anyways keep refusing gods will.
So two options come to mind.
- Suicide, but I am to scared to weak to do it correctly.
- Prison, oh boy (sarcasm). Wrote a letter to the police about crimes I have commited but have not heard back. Oh and I have tried the mental locked hospital, but just don’t respect it enogh and keep ending up back in the mental hosptial wasting thousands of dollars of taxpayer money becauseyeah.
So I guess I am asking for prayer to go to prison. God please let this cup pass me by.
And I plan on relapsing on drugs so I guess the sooner the better.
No this is not fun. God please help.
But gods will right?
I do have musterd seed faith I guess (sometimes) ****.
Oh and please please please please please please pray for my poor mother who goes ough hell daily. And all the saintly people who worry about me daily.
Thank you thank you thank you. Peace.