I pray more today than I ever have in my life and I find my self thinking about Christ and God and Mary and various spiritual topics constantly. My mom has begun to tease me about it and has even said that I need to relax. She thinks I think about religion and whether or not I am sinning to much. She said I need to lighten up or I will depress myself. But I don’t feel depressed about it I just really love God and Jesus and church and I don’t want to do anything that might cause Him pain. So I try to be careful but the trouble is I don’t know enough. I know all this sounds corney and geeky but I just do love Him. I wish I could give Jesus a hug. He deserves one and I always think about how horrible it must’ve been to be crucified. If I was there I wouldn’t have been able to let it happen but I am digressing as always.
Anyway is this considered praying unceasingly? Or am I simply thinking alot? Maybe just overanalyzing?
When the rhythm of your life is centered in Jesus, you are praying unceasingly.
In the book, “The Way of the Pilgrim,” the young Russian peasant, travels across early 19 century Russia, trying to learn how to pray unceasingly. (I’m going from memory here, so the details may not be exact, but the essence of the story is.) He visits monastery after monastery. He visits Bishops, asking all of them how to pray unceasingly. He meets up with one Abbot of a monastery, who teaches him the Jesus prayer. The abbot tells him, using your rosary beads, say the Jesus prayer on each bead, 500 times per day. The pilgrim does this. The next day, the Abbot tells him to say 1000 Jesus prayers, then next day, the Abbot says 3000. This goes on for a month until the pilgrim is saying the Jesus prayer, 5000 per day. Then the Abbot tells him, not keep saying the Jesus prayer, everyday, all day long. Eventually what happens is, the prayer becomes part of the pilgrim’s life. He finds himself saying it, almost unconsciously, as he travels across Russia. Eventually he’s drawn into the center of his being where he says the pray within his heart. Eventually, he experiences the silence of God’s presence and there he receives the transforming grace of divine love. Now, he experiences the presence of God in everything and everyone, through love.
Its a book I could not put down, when I first read it.
Jim