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daniden06
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Hi there, I’m here mainly to ask for prayers for my son. He’s 21 years old (still lives at home) and a very gentle, respectful, introverted, VERY empathetic, and old soul…also a musician. He’s been battling pretty major depression with some anxiety, which has gotten worse over the past several months (he has had suicidal thoughts too). He also had a car accident last summer (no injuries, thank God) and lost his job a couple months ago too. He is on a anti-depressant now and are just trying to find the right dose at this point (just started about 3 weeks ago). Anyway, he has a girlfriend too, who has had a rough life (raised by a lesbian mom, has no relationship with her dad anymore, no faith life, also deals with depression and major anxiety, etc). She really is a very sweet girl (though, internally, I don’t agree with her very “live and let live” attitude), but my son’s increasing depression makes me think it has at least something to do with her issues and so their relationship worries us (she has breakdowns that he finds himself dealing with too). Along with the girlfriend issue, the past few months, he has stopped going to Mass as well. The other day he had an emotional breakdown and told me that he feels like he’s worth nothing and wishes he was dead. Of course I tried to refute it, but when someone has these ideas in their head, there isn’t a lot you can say to make them believe it. I told him that we’ve seen a change in him since he’s stopped going to Mass, receiving the sacraments, etc, and he just sort of blew me off. He told me that he doesn’t understand why God allows evil and why he won’t just “fix” his and all the other problems in the world. He said God isn’t doing anything for him so why should he go to Mass and worship him. He even told me that he doesn’t feel bad about rejecting God, but that for some reason, he still feels bad on some level and says that God is manipulating him. sigh He said that he’s been feeling this way for a while (even before he met his girlfriend), but I can’t help but think that his relationship with her and his depression has exacerbated these feelings. I have no doubt that he’s being spiritually attacked by the evil one too…the feelings of doubt and lack of self-worth is exactly what he wants and he’s trying to put a wedge between my son and God. St. Michael has always been his patron saint and I asked him to wear his medal…if nothing else, than to humor his mom. I need to get him a new one since he lost the other one. We’ll see if he’ll wear it. Anyway, this is NOT my son. I think he’s just hurting and has no one else to lash out at except for God…and satan isn’t helping. Sorry, this was so long…just had to get it all out and give you all a sense of who my son is. Please pray for him for a change of heart. Also, If you have any good books on any of the things my son is dealing with, please pass them onto me. Thank you.
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