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katesmom
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Im coming through one of the most painful experiences in my life. OCD with intrustive thoughts and depression.
Two months ago I was reading something online & was struck deeply by what I read about Solipsism **(dont research it if you dont know what it is?) - **
I wasnt searching for it or about it but it appeared on the screen in front of me I wanted proof that it wasnt true - but couldnt find any absolute 100% certainty that it wasnt.
I immediately rejected the idea but found myself in a downward spiral of obsessions & losing my faith & trust in God?
It was strange but I had trouble focusing on what I needed to & obsessing about what I shouldnt! I take anti anxiety pills as needed but try to not self medicate because I feel it can mask the problem for some?
Im trying desparatley to get back to the faith I had prior to this! I’m glad to say that I’m slowly coming out of it - I’ve accepted that it is just a scary thought & nothing more - but it has wounded me deeply! It just felt like the rug was ripped out from under me?
Ive dealt with weird intrusive thoughts - what if thoughts - fear of death - fear of the unknown! I feel very distant from God! I pray - not as often as I should but I try to!
Two months ago I was reading something online & was struck deeply by what I read about Solipsism **(dont research it if you dont know what it is?) - **
I wasnt searching for it or about it but it appeared on the screen in front of me I wanted proof that it wasnt true - but couldnt find any absolute 100% certainty that it wasnt.
I immediately rejected the idea but found myself in a downward spiral of obsessions & losing my faith & trust in God?
It was strange but I had trouble focusing on what I needed to & obsessing about what I shouldnt! I take anti anxiety pills as needed but try to not self medicate because I feel it can mask the problem for some?
Im trying desparatley to get back to the faith I had prior to this! I’m glad to say that I’m slowly coming out of it - I’ve accepted that it is just a scary thought & nothing more - but it has wounded me deeply! It just felt like the rug was ripped out from under me?
Ive dealt with weird intrusive thoughts - what if thoughts - fear of death - fear of the unknown! I feel very distant from God! I pray - not as often as I should but I try to!
