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Hello prayer warriors! Warning long post…
My husband and I are currently expecting our 4th child although this is my 5th pregnancy. I have 3 beautiful boys and am so blessed, having said that my 2 previous pregnancies were an emotional Rollercoaster for myself and my husband. I was full of hope when my 3rd pregnancy was a girl after having 2 boys but the doctor said she had hydrops fetalis (a rare condition where there is fluid buildup in 2 or more places in the body). I was devastated but after doing some research online I discovered it can spontaneously disappear or there are ways to drain fluid in utero. Termination was offered at the specialist which we of course denied. I was hopeful, at our 2nd appointment she had no heartbeat.
A year later I fell pregnant again with my Jude he had the same condition plus another rare condition (in short I found out I carried a condition called opitz that only affects boys, they have cleft lip/palate missing parts of their brain and can be at risk of water on the brain it’s a 50/50 shot with each pregnancy which is why my other 2 didn’t get it). The 2 conditions are miraculously unrelated. In his case the hydrops started disappearing toward the end of the pregnancy. But throughout the entire pregnancy I never let myself get happy or sad I had completely shut off my emotions. I gave birth a week early so he could have access to a nicu and he thrived, he has no water on his brain and is developing well a bit delayed in his speech but that’s it, he is 2 now! I am so thankful for our Lord in blessing me with this sweet miracle.
But now I find myself scared our 18 week appointment is coming up the anotomy scan, that’s when we discovered the problems with our last 2 and I am struggling to have faith. I am asking you all to please pray for my sweet baby that he or she is healthy. I don’t know if I have the strength to go through another uncertain pregnancy. Of course I will do whatever I have to for my child, but I had postpartum depression after Jude and it was very hard to get back into normalcy. Please keep us in our prayers and I thank you so much, I really needed to vent and I find that this was the perfect place. God bless you all.
My husband and I are currently expecting our 4th child although this is my 5th pregnancy. I have 3 beautiful boys and am so blessed, having said that my 2 previous pregnancies were an emotional Rollercoaster for myself and my husband. I was full of hope when my 3rd pregnancy was a girl after having 2 boys but the doctor said she had hydrops fetalis (a rare condition where there is fluid buildup in 2 or more places in the body). I was devastated but after doing some research online I discovered it can spontaneously disappear or there are ways to drain fluid in utero. Termination was offered at the specialist which we of course denied. I was hopeful, at our 2nd appointment she had no heartbeat.
A year later I fell pregnant again with my Jude he had the same condition plus another rare condition (in short I found out I carried a condition called opitz that only affects boys, they have cleft lip/palate missing parts of their brain and can be at risk of water on the brain it’s a 50/50 shot with each pregnancy which is why my other 2 didn’t get it). The 2 conditions are miraculously unrelated. In his case the hydrops started disappearing toward the end of the pregnancy. But throughout the entire pregnancy I never let myself get happy or sad I had completely shut off my emotions. I gave birth a week early so he could have access to a nicu and he thrived, he has no water on his brain and is developing well a bit delayed in his speech but that’s it, he is 2 now! I am so thankful for our Lord in blessing me with this sweet miracle.
But now I find myself scared our 18 week appointment is coming up the anotomy scan, that’s when we discovered the problems with our last 2 and I am struggling to have faith. I am asking you all to please pray for my sweet baby that he or she is healthy. I don’t know if I have the strength to go through another uncertain pregnancy. Of course I will do whatever I have to for my child, but I had postpartum depression after Jude and it was very hard to get back into normalcy. Please keep us in our prayers and I thank you so much, I really needed to vent and I find that this was the perfect place. God bless you all.
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