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Faithfullyyours
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I am feeling very overwhelmed with my life . I have been in a relationship for 15 years with a man who cannot show love or support to me . I was gifted by God with a beautiful child . This man was never the partner I thought I would end up with as he has no idea how to look after anyone but himself . I have put up with a lot but said nothing for the sake of my child . This included alcoholism in the early years and then to be left to basically rear my child on my own .He is unsupportive financially but will pay for half of the bills of our home which is in my name … I have never felt loved by him . He sits in a separate room to me and my child . He will not eat with us or go out with us . I had been willing to put up with this behaviour for the happiness of my child . But his elderly father has been ill and through my encouragement he has started to take some care for him . Through my unhappiness over the years I have started not caring about my home . Imy home is clean but cluttered as I have no storage .a while back I realised that I was offending God as he would never marry me… I thought I had been doing the right thing for my child keeping us together but I had a mouse come in to the house that seemed to set off a spiral of events . He could not cope with this and left my child and I to deal with it as I was inevitably getting blamed for clutter causing this problem . My child has been very confused as her father has been staying with his father while he is unwell but still coming to our home and not speaking to me as he is angry that the house is a mess . My child is displaying anger towards me and I only realised how this is all affecting her even though her parents don’t speak . He will not make the move to try and sort this out . He does not care how we are being affected . . She says she hates him as she now can see the way I have been treated . She is displaying symptoms of stress and anxiety and I feel so awful as I never wanted this for her . I want him to realise that he has a home with his father and that he is causing us both emotional harm .i have given 100% to my child over the years but he is ruining that now . My child is a very talented loving kind and happy child but this is the first time I have seen this.My home is a mess my relationship is a mess and I have a lot of health issues due to this man . He would not care for me when I was ill and it was only through god that I am still here and for my child . . He is going to make things difficult for me and my child . Am I better to pretend I am happy and content with the way things are or have it be over now before any more damage is done . Please pray for complete healing of my body and mind as I have various autoimmune problems and have very difficult days . I am also very anxious and depressed and need hope . But my main concern is my child. I can see me in her as I had a very emotionally detached father who made us all feel anxious and stressed at home . My child is the most important thing in my life . Please pray I get sone support as I have no family or friends to talk to .