Wow!! This is AWESOME!! Good for you!!! I will be praying for you to have the strength and courage of our Lord! With God you and do ALL things!
It might also help you if you offer up this suffering up to our Lord for reparation of sins. When I am going through something unpleasant or some form of suffering I try to remember to offer it up to our Lord for the conversion of someone or for the sins of the world and that helps me feel like it is not all being done in vain. Hope that helps. God Bless you.
Here is a little quote from Padre Pio that I like:
"Always humble yourself lovingly before God and man, because God speaks to those who are truly humble of heart, and enriches them with His gifts." Padre Pio
Praying for you…
Hail Mary, Full of Grace,The Lord is with Thee, Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of death. Amen.