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cthulhubryan
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Many of you know my story that I desperately want to be Catholic but my wife is very anti catholic. I have been talking with Fr Jim and he recently told me:
I have read the books of the Macabees and have prayed and have been saying a hail mary every day (every time I but a rosary it “disappears”) and finally decided that my duty to God, to my wife and kids and to myself was too important and I have joined the RCIA group. I will be joining the Church.
I am so happy.
I am so scared.
Am I doing the right thing, I know that I am and yet I am more afraid than I have ever been. No fear has ever seemed more grave than this one. I do many things that I know are wrong and my internal (infernal) justification is that my church doesn’t seem to recognize the Word of God. Joining God’s Church will mean that I have no more excuses. I am terrified. I am happy.
Over the last month or so I have come to regard many of you as friends and/or family and I now beg for your prayers as I move forward with this step in my life and for prayers for my wife that she can come to see the beauty that I have found in the Church.
All the normal questions that bothered me so long about the Blessed Virgin and Confession have been resolved by reading and often by comments made here on CAF.
Thank you,
Bryan
He also asked me if I was strong enough to pick up Christ’s cross and follow Him. He asked that I read through the Macabees about people called to God but not morally strong enough to follow.for a spouse to say “if you choose this (something being morally sound) over that, then i will leave you” – is not healthy and speaks of grave manipulation.
I have read the books of the Macabees and have prayed and have been saying a hail mary every day (every time I but a rosary it “disappears”) and finally decided that my duty to God, to my wife and kids and to myself was too important and I have joined the RCIA group. I will be joining the Church.
I am so happy.
I am so scared.
Am I doing the right thing, I know that I am and yet I am more afraid than I have ever been. No fear has ever seemed more grave than this one. I do many things that I know are wrong and my internal (infernal) justification is that my church doesn’t seem to recognize the Word of God. Joining God’s Church will mean that I have no more excuses. I am terrified. I am happy.
Over the last month or so I have come to regard many of you as friends and/or family and I now beg for your prayers as I move forward with this step in my life and for prayers for my wife that she can come to see the beauty that I have found in the Church.
All the normal questions that bothered me so long about the Blessed Virgin and Confession have been resolved by reading and often by comments made here on CAF.
Thank you,
Bryan