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Job 21:7-15 (KJV)
** 7Wherefore do the wicked live, become old, yea, are mighty in power?
8Their seed is established in their sight with them, and their offspring before their eyes.
9Their houses are safe from fear, neither is the rod of God upon them.
10Their bull gendereth, and faileth not; their cow calveth, and casteth not her calf.
11They send forth their little ones like a flock, and their children dance.
12They take the timbrel and harp, and rejoice at the sound of the organ.
13They spend their days in wealth, and in a moment go down to the grave.
14Therefore they say unto God, Depart from us; for we desire not the knowledge of thy ways.
15What is the Almighty, that we should serve him? and what profit should we have, if we pray unto him?**
I am not ranting against God in this, but like JOB above, I truly DO NOT UNDERSTAND THIS. Have I been an AWFUL sinner? YES. Have I been an awful sexual sinner? Yes, I HAVE. Have I ever done something(s) that, intentionally or not, endangered the innocent, even loved ones? YES. Have I ever done grossly wrong things? YES I HAVE.
BUT. I have REPENTED. I am trying, SO hard, to live a life of grace, & am having a living hell of it most of the time. Barely able to make ends meet. Can’t even give to the church. let alone my family, the kind of help I ought & want to GIVE.
I’m not asking God to reward my repentance and trying to live faithfully by making me a pampered millionaire, but I’m overwhelmed with guilt, even after confession.
I can barely make a living to survive. I blame myself because I never finished my college education. Part of it was lack of effort, EXACERBATED GREATLY because I was raised in a cult religion that told me that THE END was coming, definitely, SO SOON that a college or advanced education WOULD BE USELESS and even offensive to God. So that’s not ALL my fault either. But I AM REPENTANT for my sins.
BUT I LOOK AT FOLKS I KNOW, many of whom are Facebook friends and etc. They have no fear of God. And NO respect for those who do.Some are dissidents. Some active homosexuals who call those who call this behavior sin, HATE MONGERS & EVIL. Many disbelieve in God (even tho they were raised in some form of Christianity, are very blasphemous, etc). Many of THEM do not have college educations, either. Others curse all who hold to traditional morals as “evil”, “despicable,” “not even human”, advocate Gay Marriage, advocate that THE CHURCH **must condone **these and other evils (like abortion, contraception, transgenderism, sodomy, lesbianism, ordination of “womyn”, etc). They mock, hate all who hold traditional Christian-based values, condemn them (like Ted Haggard) when they fall into the VERY SINS that THEY ADVOCATE AND CONDONE. THEY ARE NOT REPENTANT AND ARE NOT ABOUT TO REPENT AND WOULD REQUIRE A DAMASCUS ROAD EXPERIENCE TO REPENT, AND (if their statements are any indication), THEY WOULD REJECT EVEN THAT.
My point: my sins were horrible, even after baptism, but I finally did repent, and have been under horrific oppression, spiritually and financially, morally & economically, for the past two years, while the people I’ve described above, who are defiant, unrepentant, hateful of godfearing people, and haters of God and blasphemers, are PROSPERING LIKE MAD.
I have no college degree, but neither do many of them, but I am suffering like HELL, and THEY have TERRIFIC jobs, paying four times what I make or MORE.
WHY is this??? Are we Christians being MOCKED? Why are those who turn their lives around, supposedly to the Rejoicing of the Angels in Heaven, suffering like Pure Hell, while those who don’t give a RAT’S FANNY about obeying God or repenting, having prosperous, happy, successful lives?
God promises to provide ALL the temporal needs, NOT JUST SPIRITUAL, of his servants.
(Don’t tell me he DOESN’T promise that, because Christ promised it, in detail, in context, in the gospels, when he spoke about God clothing the Lilies of the Field and that he would ALL THE MORE provide our needs, o us of Little Faith).
So WHY are so many of us constantly, with almost NO let up, going through all PURE hell, while the HATERS OF GOD and HATERS of those who try to Obey God, prospering like MAD? Why? Why? What good are they doing for the world? They are deliberately CORRUPTING it, living materialistically, using their money to PROMOTE EVIL instead of to promote the Faith (like I would do if I had it. I know I would, because I give what LITTLE I can to do JUST THAT). Does God WANT the Church and it’s believers to have NO MONEY to help further the spread of the Kingdom? I just don’t understand. I AM NOT QUESTIONING GOD’S RIGHTEOUSNESS.
I am just trying to understand what MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL, namely,
WHY those who promote EVIL have PLENTY OF MONEY TO DO SO,
while those of us who want to 1) satisfy all our just debts and 2) USE OUR FUNDS TO PROMOTE GOD’S KINGDOM, CHURCH, AND RIGHTEOUS CAUSES, have LITTLE OR NO MONEY to do so. It is frustrating me to DEATH, and I don’t know what to make of it. PLUS, I know from experience, that many Sunday-Catholics, who DO HAVE money, put a mere DOLLAR in the plate, to support the church, and that’s ALL they give the WHOLE week. I don’t THINK this, I KNOW this, because our church’s finances and weekly “takes” are posted in the bulletin. That one buck a week is per-capita. I go to a well-off parish, and PER CAPITA, the total giving per person is about a BUCK a week. That means that MANY of our well-off, are giving NOTHING, zero, zilch, NADA, to God’s House and God’s Work. This too, I don’t understand.
Could ANY of you good people, with insight into this, please help me understand?
Thank you and God love all of you.
Kindest regards, blessings to all,
Jaypeeto4
** 7Wherefore do the wicked live, become old, yea, are mighty in power?
8Their seed is established in their sight with them, and their offspring before their eyes.
9Their houses are safe from fear, neither is the rod of God upon them.
10Their bull gendereth, and faileth not; their cow calveth, and casteth not her calf.
11They send forth their little ones like a flock, and their children dance.
12They take the timbrel and harp, and rejoice at the sound of the organ.
13They spend their days in wealth, and in a moment go down to the grave.
14Therefore they say unto God, Depart from us; for we desire not the knowledge of thy ways.
15What is the Almighty, that we should serve him? and what profit should we have, if we pray unto him?**
I am not ranting against God in this, but like JOB above, I truly DO NOT UNDERSTAND THIS. Have I been an AWFUL sinner? YES. Have I been an awful sexual sinner? Yes, I HAVE. Have I ever done something(s) that, intentionally or not, endangered the innocent, even loved ones? YES. Have I ever done grossly wrong things? YES I HAVE.
BUT. I have REPENTED. I am trying, SO hard, to live a life of grace, & am having a living hell of it most of the time. Barely able to make ends meet. Can’t even give to the church. let alone my family, the kind of help I ought & want to GIVE.
I’m not asking God to reward my repentance and trying to live faithfully by making me a pampered millionaire, but I’m overwhelmed with guilt, even after confession.
I can barely make a living to survive. I blame myself because I never finished my college education. Part of it was lack of effort, EXACERBATED GREATLY because I was raised in a cult religion that told me that THE END was coming, definitely, SO SOON that a college or advanced education WOULD BE USELESS and even offensive to God. So that’s not ALL my fault either. But I AM REPENTANT for my sins.
BUT I LOOK AT FOLKS I KNOW, many of whom are Facebook friends and etc. They have no fear of God. And NO respect for those who do.Some are dissidents. Some active homosexuals who call those who call this behavior sin, HATE MONGERS & EVIL. Many disbelieve in God (even tho they were raised in some form of Christianity, are very blasphemous, etc). Many of THEM do not have college educations, either. Others curse all who hold to traditional morals as “evil”, “despicable,” “not even human”, advocate Gay Marriage, advocate that THE CHURCH **must condone **these and other evils (like abortion, contraception, transgenderism, sodomy, lesbianism, ordination of “womyn”, etc). They mock, hate all who hold traditional Christian-based values, condemn them (like Ted Haggard) when they fall into the VERY SINS that THEY ADVOCATE AND CONDONE. THEY ARE NOT REPENTANT AND ARE NOT ABOUT TO REPENT AND WOULD REQUIRE A DAMASCUS ROAD EXPERIENCE TO REPENT, AND (if their statements are any indication), THEY WOULD REJECT EVEN THAT.
My point: my sins were horrible, even after baptism, but I finally did repent, and have been under horrific oppression, spiritually and financially, morally & economically, for the past two years, while the people I’ve described above, who are defiant, unrepentant, hateful of godfearing people, and haters of God and blasphemers, are PROSPERING LIKE MAD.
I have no college degree, but neither do many of them, but I am suffering like HELL, and THEY have TERRIFIC jobs, paying four times what I make or MORE.
WHY is this??? Are we Christians being MOCKED? Why are those who turn their lives around, supposedly to the Rejoicing of the Angels in Heaven, suffering like Pure Hell, while those who don’t give a RAT’S FANNY about obeying God or repenting, having prosperous, happy, successful lives?
God promises to provide ALL the temporal needs, NOT JUST SPIRITUAL, of his servants.
(Don’t tell me he DOESN’T promise that, because Christ promised it, in detail, in context, in the gospels, when he spoke about God clothing the Lilies of the Field and that he would ALL THE MORE provide our needs, o us of Little Faith).
So WHY are so many of us constantly, with almost NO let up, going through all PURE hell, while the HATERS OF GOD and HATERS of those who try to Obey God, prospering like MAD? Why? Why? What good are they doing for the world? They are deliberately CORRUPTING it, living materialistically, using their money to PROMOTE EVIL instead of to promote the Faith (like I would do if I had it. I know I would, because I give what LITTLE I can to do JUST THAT). Does God WANT the Church and it’s believers to have NO MONEY to help further the spread of the Kingdom? I just don’t understand. I AM NOT QUESTIONING GOD’S RIGHTEOUSNESS.
I am just trying to understand what MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL, namely,
WHY those who promote EVIL have PLENTY OF MONEY TO DO SO,
while those of us who want to 1) satisfy all our just debts and 2) USE OUR FUNDS TO PROMOTE GOD’S KINGDOM, CHURCH, AND RIGHTEOUS CAUSES, have LITTLE OR NO MONEY to do so. It is frustrating me to DEATH, and I don’t know what to make of it. PLUS, I know from experience, that many Sunday-Catholics, who DO HAVE money, put a mere DOLLAR in the plate, to support the church, and that’s ALL they give the WHOLE week. I don’t THINK this, I KNOW this, because our church’s finances and weekly “takes” are posted in the bulletin. That one buck a week is per-capita. I go to a well-off parish, and PER CAPITA, the total giving per person is about a BUCK a week. That means that MANY of our well-off, are giving NOTHING, zero, zilch, NADA, to God’s House and God’s Work. This too, I don’t understand.
Could ANY of you good people, with insight into this, please help me understand?
Thank you and God love all of you.
Kindest regards, blessings to all,
Jaypeeto4
Going through some issues myself full of struggles and heartaches. This reminder really lifted up my spirits, sometimes need a reminder to help me stay strong in my faith. 