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When I walk around campus from class to class, I do absolutely nothing aside from stare at my shoes and shuffle, so I’ve been trying to get into the habit of folding my hands over my abdomen and praying St. Gertrude’s prayer over and over.
I get really scrupulous about praying in public, since Jesus said, “And when you pray, you shall not be as the hypocrites, that love to stand and pray in the synagogues and corners of the streets, that they may be seen by men: Amen I say to you, they have received their reward.”
So here’s the question and possible dilemma:
I have quite long hair and so I wear a brimmed hat to keep it out of my face, so when I look down when I’m walking, nobody can see my eyes (I just take my time and look for shoes ahead of me). I keep my lips shut or very close to shut but still mouth the words and move my tongue (praying in my heart, I suppose). If I make the sign of the cross (the sacramental) many students along the walkways will see me making it and they will know automatically that I am praying, and I will know that they know and therefore I’ll be haunted. So do I need to make the sign of the cross to initiate and close a prayer officially, or what? Is it absolutely needed? Does it just improve the prayer?
Also, is it okay to wear a hat while you pray? Is it gravely rude to God, or is it rude enough to God where I’d be better off not praying during those times, or is it just a convention? This is sort of the same case as before; if I take the hat off, I’ll attract lots of attention because, frankly, I look strange (so my folded hands, half-dimmed eyelids, hunched position, and whatever else might make them think I’m praying, and then I’d be thinking that they’re thinking that, which at the very least may initiate scruples and at the most may be a grave matter).
Also, am I right to be doing this heart-prayer thing? If sin originates in the heart, does prayer also originate in the heart like I’ve been presuming it does?
Entirely unrelated: Does anyone else who is or was once way overburdened by college have trouble saying the Rosary daily or doing some other thing recommended by the Church daily, or even weekly?
I get really scrupulous about praying in public, since Jesus said, “And when you pray, you shall not be as the hypocrites, that love to stand and pray in the synagogues and corners of the streets, that they may be seen by men: Amen I say to you, they have received their reward.”
So here’s the question and possible dilemma:
I have quite long hair and so I wear a brimmed hat to keep it out of my face, so when I look down when I’m walking, nobody can see my eyes (I just take my time and look for shoes ahead of me). I keep my lips shut or very close to shut but still mouth the words and move my tongue (praying in my heart, I suppose). If I make the sign of the cross (the sacramental) many students along the walkways will see me making it and they will know automatically that I am praying, and I will know that they know and therefore I’ll be haunted. So do I need to make the sign of the cross to initiate and close a prayer officially, or what? Is it absolutely needed? Does it just improve the prayer?
Also, is it okay to wear a hat while you pray? Is it gravely rude to God, or is it rude enough to God where I’d be better off not praying during those times, or is it just a convention? This is sort of the same case as before; if I take the hat off, I’ll attract lots of attention because, frankly, I look strange (so my folded hands, half-dimmed eyelids, hunched position, and whatever else might make them think I’m praying, and then I’d be thinking that they’re thinking that, which at the very least may initiate scruples and at the most may be a grave matter).
Also, am I right to be doing this heart-prayer thing? If sin originates in the heart, does prayer also originate in the heart like I’ve been presuming it does?
Entirely unrelated: Does anyone else who is or was once way overburdened by college have trouble saying the Rosary daily or doing some other thing recommended by the Church daily, or even weekly?