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SecretBeliever
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Qui,
Well yeah but–it’s uncomfortable for sure! I’ve gotta face up to what’s really going on in my mind. Maybe I don’t have enough faith to go anywhere (that’s the scariest though probably!). Maybe I’m too scared of losing my husband or driving him deeper into the drink.
Maybe …something…something…something…
I gotta tell ya. Before I first went to “Catholic Inquiry Class” about 30-some years ago (they didn’t have RCIA yet) I saw the ad in the paper for it. I dithered until the last minute, and literally, at the last minute, I asked the neighbor to babysit the kids (my ex-husband was away at school), and drove there and then went every week, with the result being of course confirmation and entry into the Church. At the time I thought: “The Catholic Church has been around since the beginning. It must be the right one.” Ex-husband never had any interest in religion. So I went by myself. I guess now I am scared that my husband, who definitely does have any interest in religion, will react adversely with who knows what results.
I think I’m getting closer to what’s really happening. I’ve been thinking about it since I read your post earlier and I’m going to continue to think about it. I do want to go to Mass. I’m scared, God help me.
Well yeah but–it’s uncomfortable for sure! I’ve gotta face up to what’s really going on in my mind. Maybe I don’t have enough faith to go anywhere (that’s the scariest though probably!). Maybe I’m too scared of losing my husband or driving him deeper into the drink.
Maybe …something…something…something…
I gotta tell ya. Before I first went to “Catholic Inquiry Class” about 30-some years ago (they didn’t have RCIA yet) I saw the ad in the paper for it. I dithered until the last minute, and literally, at the last minute, I asked the neighbor to babysit the kids (my ex-husband was away at school), and drove there and then went every week, with the result being of course confirmation and entry into the Church. At the time I thought: “The Catholic Church has been around since the beginning. It must be the right one.” Ex-husband never had any interest in religion. So I went by myself. I guess now I am scared that my husband, who definitely does have any interest in religion, will react adversely with who knows what results.
I think I’m getting closer to what’s really happening. I’ve been thinking about it since I read your post earlier and I’m going to continue to think about it. I do want to go to Mass. I’m scared, God help me.