
I am so glad to find this forum on rcia as I was up all last night in total depression thinking something was wrong with me. Our class consist of reading the catechism and This is the faith. I started (after a growing up in a Baptist church in an unchristion home) 20 years ago trying to find a church to attend, studing the Bible daily with lots of prayer all day long trying to find where I belonged. I gained a good knowledge of Gods word and then discovered EWTN and was so excited to find a church that taught what I had come to believe. Everytime I ran into something I did not understand, I prayed and God answered.(praying to the saints, Blessed Mother of God and the true presence in the Eucharist. 5 of those years was spent learning the catholic faith to decide if it was for me. Visited 3 different parishes before choosing. It is a humbling experience which is good. Why if the church is one under the Pope is there so much confustion and difference? No one genuflects and some don’t even bow receiving christ. I guess EWTN lead me to believe all would be basically the same. I do wish EWTN did a little less latin. I think some is good but most people haven’t a clue whats being said and whats being said is most wonderful. What I needed in rcia was not theology as I think most are passed this when they decide to join rcia. I need to know how the church functions,the customs especially for those in rcia as can’t seem to find this in any books. My biggest problem is getting an annullment from a very young marriage. The questions are such that I really only want to discuss in confession and a nice deacon is handling this for us. I’ m not the kind of person who wants to go to even more churches and discuss with more people my old life, but so far that the only advise I have received. I don’t understand why our priest or any I’ve meet seem not very eager to talk with us. Maybe thats me as I’m not one to approach people either as I feel I might be bothering them when I shouldn’t. I don’t understand why everything seems so hard. I guess the road is very narrow. I guess I am to blame as I don’t ask enough questions or approach the priest as I feel I shouldn’t expect them to spend so much time on my situation. Pray for me please and any advise would be great. Sorry for the length of this.