Ready for Death vs. Death Wish

[nobody]

I recently had a biopsy done - it came back benign. In the waiting time, I prayed for God’s will. I felt ready for impending death. I thought it would be good to have time to prepare for death, have prayers said for me, etc. Less time to mess up. I could offer my sufferings up for my family. I mean no offense or disrespect to people who have cancer. Yes, I was a little scared, but I was ready to hear the results either way. When the results came back benign, I thought maybe God was saying, no: you have to clean up the messes you made, first. I’m in my late 30’s.

Is this odd? Would you consider this a “Death wish”? Has anyone had similar thoughts?

 

[water]

In the waiting time, I prayed for God’s will. I felt ready for impending death. I thought it would be good to have time to prepare for death, have prayers said for me, etc. Less time to mess up. I could offer my sufferings up for my family.

It is not weird. It is good that you pray to follow God’s will and to be prepared for when God calls. All of us should do the same thing regardless of our health conditions.

In the mean time, pray that you should not let the thought of death overwhelm you too much that it may affect your daily life activities.

My mother have some illness and with grace of God, she is strong and offer this to God. It does not only help her have faith in God but also help me and my family as well. We’ve become less worried about her health and be more prepared for our souls.

God bless you!

 

[Victorious]

I recently had a biopsy done - it came back benign. In the waiting time, I prayed for God’s will. I felt ready for impending death. I thought it would be good to have time to prepare for death, have prayers said for me, etc. Less time to mess up. I could offer my sufferings up for my family. I mean no offense or disrespect to people who have cancer. Yes, I was a little scared, but I was ready to hear the results either way. When the results came back benign, I thought maybe God was saying, no: you have to clean up the messes you made, first. I’m in my late 30’s.

Is this odd? Would you consider this a “Death wish”? Has anyone had similar thoughts?

Death, judgment, hell, heaven: the Four Last Things. Time was when priests would actually preach about these things.

We should prepare now for death, because (mercifully) knowledge of the exact moment of our deaths is withheld from us, and because when the time comes for us to die, we can’t count on being able to repent. We might die suddenly, or we might lose our minds. In fact, whenever we try to practice virtue and avoid sin, one of the things we’re doing is preparing for death, because we’ll die as we’ve lived.

Whenever I pray the Sorrowful Mysteries, with the Fifth Sorrowful Mystery I ask for the grace of final perseverance and not to die without my sacraments. I also ask it for my friends and family.