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I recently returned home from a trip to Europe. During my time in Switzerland i managed to find a Catholic Church to attend mass on Sunday. It was all in german (which unfortunately the only phrase i know is “do you speak english”) so i didnt understand a word. Because of this i decided to sit at the back and try to (silently) participate in it as much as i can, at the parts i know. But this meant that i also couldn’t see the altar clearly, because i need new glasses and can only see clearly about 20-30 ft in front of me.
The thing is, during the Gospel i noticed people getting up to leave, and after wards half way during mass as well. I thought at the time this was because they may have been tourists who got bored of watching. Looking back i realise they probably realised the Priest was a woman before me.
It wasnt until i went up for the Eucharist and i finally came face to face with Priest that i realised it was a woman. But at that moment all i felt was confusion, i mean, she had really short hair like a man, she was on the stocky side, so i wasn’t quite sure if she was, but her um… bosom seemed to be quite evident of the fact she was female. She was also fully dressed in the traditional vestments that Catholic Priests wear during mass. Anyway, i had a split second to decide what to do and i took the Eucharist, though afterwards i was disgusted with myself as i came to the full realisation that she was, in fact, a woman.
Im so confused about all of this, especially because it was a Catholic Church! Why would they allow a woman to hold mass? And is the Eucharist still the body and blood of Christ since it was done by a woman? Its not, right? But is it a sin i chose to take it? Do i need to go and confess it? And should i discuss this with my Parish Priest? And why was she serving in a Catholic Church? And what about all the people in the Parish who willingly received the Eucharist from her? (Though there weren’t many people there though the church was huge) Would it be a mortal sin for them?
I just dont know what to do at this point … i havent received the Eucharist since just in case it was a mortal sin. Im just still so confused … im also scared how my parish priest would react if i told him this…
The thing is, during the Gospel i noticed people getting up to leave, and after wards half way during mass as well. I thought at the time this was because they may have been tourists who got bored of watching. Looking back i realise they probably realised the Priest was a woman before me.
It wasnt until i went up for the Eucharist and i finally came face to face with Priest that i realised it was a woman. But at that moment all i felt was confusion, i mean, she had really short hair like a man, she was on the stocky side, so i wasn’t quite sure if she was, but her um… bosom seemed to be quite evident of the fact she was female. She was also fully dressed in the traditional vestments that Catholic Priests wear during mass. Anyway, i had a split second to decide what to do and i took the Eucharist, though afterwards i was disgusted with myself as i came to the full realisation that she was, in fact, a woman.
Im so confused about all of this, especially because it was a Catholic Church! Why would they allow a woman to hold mass? And is the Eucharist still the body and blood of Christ since it was done by a woman? Its not, right? But is it a sin i chose to take it? Do i need to go and confess it? And should i discuss this with my Parish Priest? And why was she serving in a Catholic Church? And what about all the people in the Parish who willingly received the Eucharist from her? (Though there weren’t many people there though the church was huge) Would it be a mortal sin for them?
I just dont know what to do at this point … i havent received the Eucharist since just in case it was a mortal sin. Im just still so confused … im also scared how my parish priest would react if i told him this…