Regret Over Time Lost

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Good Evening Family,

I am so grateful to be back in the church. I know God has forgiven me in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and I truly believe He has, I still feel terrible about all the time I lost. I was out of the Church for 11 years and I feel so sad thinking about what I could have done for God and the Church. I know all I can do is go on but does anyone else go through this guilt about what “might have been”?:bighanky:
 
Welcome home 🙂

I think anyone who left the Church for a few years has regrets. My regret is that I did not return to the Church until after my parents had passed on. It must have hurt them.

But yes, we must go on and do what we can while we are still here. And looking around at the world, there is certainly a lot to be done.

God Bless
 
You’re not alone. I too have come back to the Church after over 8 years of wandering in the wilderness, and very alone. I found a wonderful parish very near to me with loving, faith-filled people and caring priests. I go to Mass almost every morning and when I do the first thing that I do is thank God for bringing me home again.
 
Good Evening Family,

I am so grateful to be back in the church. I know God has forgiven me in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and I truly believe He has, I still feel terrible about all the time I lost. I was out of the Church for 11 years and I feel so sad thinking about what I could have done for God and the Church. I know all I can do is go on but does anyone else go through this guilt about what “might have been”?:bighanky:
Rest in the Lord knowing that he says “I make all things new again!” Thank Him for the grace for bringing you back, and spend the rest of your life serving him.
 
Good Evening Family,

I am so grateful to be back in the church. I know God has forgiven me in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and I truly believe He has, I still feel terrible about all the time I lost. I was out of the Church for 11 years and I feel so sad thinking about what I could have done for God and the Church. I know all I can do is go on but does anyone else go through this guilt about what “might have been”?:bighanky:
I too felt like this…but like the prodigal son story…the Father still rejoices…👍
 
“Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace.”

-St. Augustine of Hippo
 
What beautiful testimonies to the wonderful grace of our God and Blessed Mother. I want every breath I take for the rest of my life to breathe, “I love you” to my Lord and my Blessed Mother now and always.
 
Even putting leaving the Church aside, everyone has regrets over what might have been. Life is a myriad of possibilities and potentialities for each of us, and only a tiny fraction of them are ever anything close to being realized. How much we would all do differently if we could do it all over again, but that is not what life’s about. We should learn from our errors, repent if necessary, feel bad for awhile if necessary, then put it behind us and move on!
 
I totally understand what you’re saying Irishgal - I was away for 35 years! How I wish I could start over, knowing what peace I could have had all those years if I had only turned to God. But I can’t begin to tell you how grateful I am that for the rest of my years here I will grow closer and closer to Him, until hopefully one day I will be able to be with Him forever. He nudged me so gently but persistently until I finally woke up and returned to Him. I’ll never leave Him again.
:signofcross: :gopray2: ← this is me every day now. 😃
 
Prayer to Redeem Lost Time

by St. Teresa of Avila

O my God! Source of all mercy! I acknowledge Your sovereign power. While recalling the wasted years that are past, I believe that You, Lord, can in an instant turn this loss to gain. Miserable as I am, yet I firmly believe that You can do all things.

Please restore to me the time lost, giving me Your grace, both now and in the future, that I may appear before You in “wedding garments.” Amen.
 
Don’t feel guilty for another second… He was waiting for you all along and knew you’d be back! 🙂 It is true. I stand at the door of your heart, day and night. Even when you are not listening, even when you doubt it could be Me, I am there. I await even the smallest sign of your response, even the least whispered invitation that will allow Me to enter. And I want you to know that whenever you invite Me, I do come – always, without fail. Silent and unseen I come, but with infinite power and love, and bringing the many gifts of My Spirit. I come with My mercy, with My desire to forgive and heal you, and with a love for you beyond your comprehension – a love every bit as great as the love I have received from the Father (“As much as the Father has loved me, I have loved you…” (Jn. 15:10) I come - longing to console you and give you strength, to lift you up and bind all your wounds. I bring you My light, to dispel your darkness and all your doubts. I come with My power, that I might carry you and all your burdens; with My grace, to touch your heart and transform your life; and My peace I give to still your soul. I know you through and through. I know everything about you. The very hairs of your head I have numbered. Nothing in your life is unimportant to Me. I have followed you through the years, and I have always loved you – even in your wanderings. I know every one of your problems. I know your needs and your worries. And yes, I know all your sins. But I tell you again that I love you – not for what you have or haven’t done – I love you for you, for the beauty and dignity My Father gave you by creating you in His own image. It is a dignity you have often forgotten, a beauty you have tarnished by sin. But I love you as you are, and I have shed My Blood to win you back. If you only ask Me with faith, My grace will touch all that needs changing in your life, and I will give you the strength to free yourself from sin and all its destructive power. I know what is in your heart – I know your loneliness and all your hurts – the rejections, the judgments, the humiliations, I carried it all before you. And I carried it all for you, so you might share My strength and victory. I know especially your need for love – how you are thirsting to be loved and cherished. But how often have you thirsted in vain, by seeking that love selfishly, striving to fill the emptiness inside you with passing pleasures – with the even greater emptiness of sin. Do you thirst for love? “Come to Me all you who thirst…” (Jn. 7: 37). I will satisfy you and fill you. Do you thirst to be cherished? I cherish you more than you can imagine – to the point of dying on a cross for you. I Thirst for You. Yes, that is the only way to even begin to describe My love for you. I THIRST FOR YOU. I thirst to love you and to be loved by you – that is how precious you are to Me. I THIRST FOR YOU. Come to Me, and I will fill your heart and heal your wounds. I will make you a new creation, and give you peace, even in all your trials I THIRST FOR YOU. You must never doubt My mercy, My acceptance of you, My desire to forgive, My longing to bless you and live My life in you. I THIRST FOR YOU. If you feel unimportant in the eyes of the world, that matters not at all. For Me, there is no one any more important in the entire world than you. I THIRST FOR YOU. Open to Me, come to Me, thirst for Me, give me your life – and I will prove to you how important you are to My Heart. Don’t you realize that My Father already has a perfect plan to transform your life, beginning from this moment? Trust in Me. Ask Me every day to enter and take charge of your life. – and I will. I promise you before My Father in heaven that I will work miracles in your life. Why would I do this? Because I THIRST FOR YOU. All I ask of you is that you entrust yourself to Me commpletely. I will do all the rest. Even now I behold the place My Father has prepared for you in My Kingdom. Remember that you are a pilgrim in this life, on a journey home. Sin can never satisfy you, or bring the peace you seek. All that you have sought outside of Me has only left you more empty, so do not cling to the things of this life. Above all, do not run from Me when you fall. Come to Me without delay. When you give Me your sins, you gave Me the joy of being your Savior. There is nothing I cannot forgive and heal; so come now, and unburden your soul. No matter how far you may wander, no matter how often you forget Me, no matter how many crosses you may bear in this life; there is one thing I want you to always remember, one thing that will never change. I THIRST FOR YOU – just as you are. You don’t need to change to believe in My love, for it will be your belief in My love that will change you. You forget Me, and yet I am seeking you every moment of the day – standing at the door of your heart and knocking. Do you find this hard to believe? Then look at the cross, look at My Heart that was pierced for you. Have you not understood My cross? Then listen again to the words I spoke there – for they tell you clearly why I endured all this for you: “I THIRST…”(Jn 19: 28). Yes, I thirst for you – as the rest of the psalm – verse I was praying says of Me: “I looked for love, and I found none…” (Ps. 69: 20). All your life I have been looking for your love – I have never stopped seeking to love you and be loved by you. You have tried many other things in your search for happiness; why not try opening your heart to Me, right now, more than you ever have before. Whenever you do open the door of your heart, whenever you come close enough, you will hear Me say to you again and again, not in mere human words but in spirit. “No matter what you have done, I love you for your own sake Come to Me with your misery and your sins, with your troubles and needs, and with all your longing to be loved. I stand at the door of your heart and knock. Open to Me, for I THIRST FOR YOU…” Mother Teresa
 
Good Evening Family,

I am so grateful to be back in the church. I know God has forgiven me in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and I truly believe He has, I still feel terrible about all the time I lost. I was out of the Church for 11 years and I feel so sad thinking about what I could have done for God and the Church. I know all I can do is go on but does anyone else go through this guilt about what “might have been”?:bighanky:
Greetings, Irishgal,

Guilt? Are you kidding? As a fellow Irish-Catholic, growing up in the 50’s, we were all raised on guilt! It’s a long standing part of our cultural tradition and identity 😉

I mention this because I once shared your guilt of Time-Lost as well, for I only found my way back to the Church 4 years ago after being lost in self-absorbed darkness for 40 years. Hmm, how strange, it just strikes me now: 40 years, lost in my own “wilderness” … rather biblical, eh?

When life’s failings set me to searching for God once more, I began at a little church just around the corner from my home where I met a wonderful young pastor, recently here from Poland. He not only helped me carry the weight of my soul to the Lord’s door once more, he rearranged my entire thinking on what Jesus wanted of me, and the incredible love that awaited me in His presence once again.

We met one evening for my first confession in decades - it took more than an hour (no, really, it did!) - and I was so relieved to find that God was NOT holding the grudge I feared for all these years of sinfulness and giving Him the cold shoulder. No, I found the Grace of His forgiveness and the sensation of love as I have never known and actually felt it before.

This brilliant young priest taught me that God’s forgiveness is not only THE final word and authority on the confessed sins of our past - He includes with His forgiveness the erasure of that sin ever having happened … permanently. In other words, He hits the reset button for us; clean slate, fresh start, proceed to Go and collect one newly washed soul!

I admit, it took quite a while before I really internalized the full meaning of this. And though I do still “regret” having lost so many years away from Him … I no longer feel “guilty” over it because, in prayer, He always reminds me of how much He loves me … and with that, even the regrets then wash away. If you would be freed from the yoke of your own guilt, learn this lesson.

If God Himself holds me without sin, who am I to argue with Him … or, for that matter, you? So go in peace to love and serve the Lord, Irishgal, and let Him take that guilt off your hands in your next confession!

So saith the SoulSeeker …

God bless you.
 
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