I didn;t dream, it was real. I had been meditating on the love of God. I had become quite melancholic. I pointed out to God in prayer with the physical expression that He requires me to love Him above all else, yet in all His creation I can embrace the loved. Yet He whom I love most of all, cannot be embraced*.
I pointed out to God that all I wanted to do was embrace HIm, not because my faith needed it, I already believed, but just to show Him that I love Him and want to cuddle HIm.
I went to bed. Immediately there was a terrific noise like I thought a jet was about to crash into the wall of my house. But there was no fear, several years later a jet passed close over head and my heart was racing with fear, but not on this occasion].
Immediately after that sound, the bed began to ripple, like it was a water bed. Then my body levitated just off the mattress, then there was a beautiful feeling of something passing through me. Then the thought occured to me that God is greater than the universe. As noble a thought as it was, one could no more embrace God than one can the universe. Then it was given to me that if I really want to embrace God, I can embrace HIm in the poor and those rejected by society, It was also given to me that I can embrace HIm in the Holy Host at Communion.
Then there was a very gentle wind, it passed over me and out of the window. It had been a hot evening and I was trying to make tangible sense of the experience. I thought it was a natural phenomena but there was no rippling of the curtains.
I turned to my wife laying next to me, who sleeps so shallow the slightest movement or noise wakes her, I cannot turn over in bed without her being disturbed. I said to her ‘Wow, what about that’ thinking she was aware of it too! She could not be woken, I shook her several times, I thought she was pretending to be in a deep sleep but then realised that she was. It was impossible to wake her.
The followed such a wonderful state of peace. I actually did not want it to end. I now understand why we cannot experience God physically in this world. We would simply lose the will to live. I just wanted to leave this realm and be with Him to experience that always.
Some while later, in a prayer group, a stranger mentioned an experience she had. She could not explain it. No one could make sense of what she said. I understood by her first three words. I explained to her that what she is now going to try to explain cannot be explained. My explanation above is far from the reality of the experience. I realise there is no language for describing the supernatural.
It can be experienced. It cannot be explained. Why me? That has often been my prayer. I am but a simple man. Why me?
Just let any one try to tell me God does not exist. I know for a fact that He does, I have truely met Him anmd been allowed to embrace Him.*