Hi everyone,
Thank you all for your responses, and prayers! I just wanted to say I’m sorry if it takes me a bit to get back to you. I am taking several aggressive summer classes.
Let me clarify:
You are all correct. Many of you pointed out something I did not realize: I am not really discerning. I am not actively pursuing the religious life in that I am not visiting orders or receiving spiritual counseling, but I do pray about my vocation frequently. I am 19-years-old, and I have been attracted to the religious life since I was 6 or so. I am strongly attracted to becoming a missionary and/or teacher, specifically the Servants of the Lord and the Virgin of Matara. About four years ago, I was in constant communication with several orders, and I even visited one. Sadly, it turned out to be SPPX (I didn’t know what SPPX was at the time). I do not have a spiritual director, but I recently started attending Latin Mass and I plan to ask my new priest.
Good progress, OP . And most orders now like entrants to have some life experience.
I have always had a lot of questions and confusions about vocations and discernment.
I have reasoned with myself that I will finish college, regardless of what vocation I decide to pursue. With that in mind, I have put discernment on the back burner and been trying to analyze what profession I want to focus on. Then, I realize that the best profession to go into will depend on my vocation. It’s a confusing cycle.
