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oksoitworked
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hello
long story short, God granted me this wonderful opportunity at redemption of my former unworthy life and i completely blew it (my pride got the best of me). as far as i’m concerned, it’s finished. game over.
i’ve always thought about becoming a priest / religious but never felt truly called. i’ve been thinking about it a lot lately but what worries me is that i might be becoming a priest for the wrong reasons. i feel like that i’m just running away from my problems (just as i ran away from my former life). in my mind, what would be ideal is to have this wonderful life and future ahead of me but to step away from it in order to completely devote myself to God because i love Him, not because i’m a coward. plus, it’s not like i can run away from myself.
in any case, what i’m really drawn to is living out my life in complete solitude with God in a monastic order, away from the world and all it’s troubles. any thoughts? thanks.
long story short, God granted me this wonderful opportunity at redemption of my former unworthy life and i completely blew it (my pride got the best of me). as far as i’m concerned, it’s finished. game over.
i’ve always thought about becoming a priest / religious but never felt truly called. i’ve been thinking about it a lot lately but what worries me is that i might be becoming a priest for the wrong reasons. i feel like that i’m just running away from my problems (just as i ran away from my former life). in my mind, what would be ideal is to have this wonderful life and future ahead of me but to step away from it in order to completely devote myself to God because i love Him, not because i’m a coward. plus, it’s not like i can run away from myself.
in any case, what i’m really drawn to is living out my life in complete solitude with God in a monastic order, away from the world and all it’s troubles. any thoughts? thanks.