Hi 4Horsemen,
I’m sorry, I think my comment on St. John of the Cross (in response to your recommendation) was buried in my post where I quoted incorrectly! In any case, I appreciate the recommendation.
I’m so glad you’re getting to know St. John of the Cross. At the same time, it’s almost impossible not to get acquainted with St. Teresa of Avila. Both were discalced Carmelites and were bent on reforming their monasteries. Both are inspirational and have written some remarkable prose.
In answer to your question about my beliefs in God, you did remember correctly that I have respect for the spiritual beliefs of the East. I have studied many world religions, not with the intention of conversion, but to understand how various peoples have worshiped God, both historically and currently.
Why don’t you have any intention of “conversion?” Don’t any of these faiths fit your paradigm of what being “spiritual” means? Just trying to understand why you haven’t found truth outside of yourself if. So please en-Light-en me, if you will? BTW, you mentioned that you have studied spiritual beliefs of the East, so have you also studied (I mean thoroughly investigated) the faith handed down from the Jewish religion through faith in Jesus Christ to Christianity?
I’ve felt a special connection to St. Therese of the Little Flower since I was a child. I often pray to her, and I say the Novena to her when others request a petition. I also pray to Archangels Raphael, Michael, Gabriel and Uriel, as well as to my personal Guardian Angel. I say prayers for my deceased loved ones.
Oh, you sound soooooooooo. . . Catholic in this paragraph. Another question: How do you think your prayers for your beloved deceased will be beneficial for them? Do you believe in Purgatory, that is, a state of purgation. (Only the perfect can see God.) But. . . you believe that God
is the universe.
I suppose I have a difficult time limiting God to the restrictions of any of the Holy Books. I believe each of them depict higher truths, and I hold all of them in equal respect. But at the end, each of them to me merely represent man’s attempt to understand the unknowable. A beautiful and mystical endeavor, and one I heartily agree with, and can relate to. I’m on the same path trying to learn and understand.
I agree that God is above all holy books. We can only glimpse Him in them. In fact, I believe that each religion has a nugget or two of truth revealed by God, but, nonetheless, I believe that the fulness of faith is revealed in the Holy Bible because God said so revealing Himself, in time, through Jesus Christ Our Lord. The Bible is more than “merely man’s attempt to understand the unknowable.” It is God’s way of communicating with us and showing us the way that leads to salvation. Why do we pray if it has no value except to make us feel better? We pray, first of all, to worship the Creator and to ask for His blessings on us our families and friends, His Church, our country and the whole world.
I believe the whole of the Universe is not only created by God, but is God. My challenge in life is learning to apply this to every moment of my life, so that even when I’m looking at a cockroach, or a very mean person, I can still find God. That challenge is incredibly difficult for me. But I’ve found in the last several years an opening of tolerance and even love and compassion, and I know that is God answering my prayers for Him to help and guide me through this process.
Why are you concerned about “finding” God when you believe He is not a person but a thing, for the universe is physical matter/energy, quantum theory or not? But I empathize with you in the idea of self-discipline, practicing the virtues.
As far as spiritual practice, I practice the above. I also meditate on how I’ve hurt others and make reparations where I am able. When they’re not possible I at least express remorse. Prayer is an every day part of my life, and I find it peaceful to be able to pray for those I’m worried about. Many people in my family are ill, and there’s such solace in knowing that God and the Angels are on the case.
You said “make reparations”. That sounds Catholic, but it’s also something we should do for our own integrity. People used to consider themselves “honorable” men and women and keep their word. You said, "Prayer is an every day part of my life. . . " Yes, I understand that you find it “peaceful”. I “pray unceasingly” as we are told to do in Scripture.

(LOL, now I’m boasting, of course, which is a fault or imperfection in itself. Anyone walking the “way of perfection,” as St. Teresa calls it, must overcome all imperfections to make the soul ready to invite God inside.
I am on a prayer network at church and will pray for your sick family members. May God grant them healing and serenity in their illnesses.
I’d love to hear some more about your story, if you’d care to share!
Thanks and peace to you!
Light1111
My story . . . well, there was a thread a few months back where I used two whole posts to describe how God “lured” me back into the Church. It was heartfelt and I thought it was something God might want me to do. Anyhow, I must have closed the thread down since no one posted after me. There are mystical moments that are quite personal, but I posted anyway. Usually, if someone tells another about their religious experiences (in the spiritual realm), people don’t generally believe it. I’m the same way, so I can’t blame anyone else. However, if I find it among all my bookmarked stuff and links in my favorites, I’ll send it as a PM. I don’t get on this board much, but didn’t you start a thread about conversion experiences?
God bless you!
4Horsemen