Honestly? At some level I feel like I don’t have a choice. The husband is the spiritual leader of my house. How can I be one with him if we have different beliefs regarding the Church. But, if I don’t feel God’s call then that is that. A part of me is hoping I am support to join the church, but it isn’t something I will do just because it would make things easier for my family. There is much more to it than that, as I am sure you undestand.
What came out on the post was not what I meant. I noticed something was not right about what I said, but was in a hurry and didn’t think it through. But yes, you are right it isn’t so much betraying my faith; but rather, betraying my church. If in the end, I do not join the Catholic church, I don’t want to look back and see myself posing as something I am not…
I have to laugh at myself a little. I did not post this earlier although I wrote it and deleted it since I felt if the issue was betraying your faith, that was the first issue to deal with. I see that you just misspoke
But I felt as if part of this issue was that you were doing this only because of your respect for your husband, the spiritual head of your household.
I have to tell you, from this side of this, I am truly excited for you. Those whom have to wrestle with their faith like this do so for a reason. God is expecting great things from you. You obviously need to keep working on this, but remember, God may just be asking for you to take that step of faith without all the T’s crossed and I’s dotted.
He has given you the knowledge, comfort and understanding that your husband is the spiritual head of the household. And now God may just be asking for you to take that step of faith without a net.
For some people, the knowledge is what needs to come first. For others, like me

, it was the step of faith first, followed by the knowledge. I knew I had to go to the Catholic Church because of the Eucharist. I went. I acknowledged that the Catholic Church had the authority. And then any lingering questions I had were answered. I was blessed that God did it through scripture too, since one of my worries was that I would not be able to “find it in the Bible”.
You acknowledge that your husband is in authority over you as the spiritual head of the household. This is a step that many women never make. It is huge! In reality, it is a small step to acknowledge that the Church is also in authority over you since your husband is in submission to the authority of the Church already. (Small from my view

).
I will continue to pray for you all. And I truly cannot wait to see what your husband and you do for the glory of His Kingdom. Can’t you just feel the Holy Spirit, eager with anticipation of where He is going to lead you?
God is standing there with the grace you need. My advice to you from a person who had to take the step first, with knowledge coming second? Reach out in faith, trusting that your prayer that your husband would come to be the spiritual head of your household (I know you thought God would answer that through Ryan becoming Baptist), but know that your prayer has been answered and God is waiting for you to follow where He already led your husband because of
your righteous prayers.
Whichever path you have to take, T’s and I’s crossed and dotted or the step of faith and the questions answered in time, just remember that God has great plans for you and your husband.
God Bless,
Maria