Rosary Novena - Life Gets Worse

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I am on my 11th day of praying the 54 day Rosary Novena. My petitions are for peace and purpose in my life. Since I started praying my life has gotten worse. Instead of peace, I have family members mocking me for praying the rosary and thinking I am better than them (what?). Instead of purpose in my life, I now have absolutely nothing - no job, no marriage, no family. I do literally nothing all day.

People say you have to lose everything to rely on God fully. I told God this morning during my prayers that all I have is him. There is nothing else for me on earth and that I just want to come home. But I know in my heart God wants me to stay here until I finish something. That’s why I am praying for purpose. I literally do not know what to do in my life, if anything. I am paralyzed. Will I feel this way forever? It seems it.

All I have is my prayers. I will continue the rosary novena because the only thing left to take away from me is my health, and I’m ok with that happening. Life has to hit rock bottom at some point.
 
I know exactly what you are going through. All I can offer you are prayers of support. Don’t give up!
 
I would be interested to hear more about the Rosary Novena – I do pray the rosary every day and have been doing so for several years – I pray the first two decades with my first cup of coffee – the remaining decades I say when I’m walking to Church – or to public transportation – and the last decade I say before I turn out the light at night – I couldn’t get thtrough the day without my rosary!!
 
Barb3 said:
I would be interested to hear more about the Rosary Novena – I do pray the rosary every day and have been doing so for several years – I pray the first two decades with my first cup of coffee – the remaining decades I say when I’m walking to Church – or to public transportation – and the last decade I say before I turn out the light at night – I couldn’t get thtrough the day without my rosary!!
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Here is the link I use when saying the 54 day Rosary novena.

romancatholicman.com/the-miraculous-54-day-rosary-novena/
 
Nap66 said:
I told God this morning during my prayers that all I have is him. There is nothing else for me on earth and that I just want to come home.
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Beautiful prayer. I have been there also. He is listening. He knows the pain you’re facing and He will bring you through more victorious than ever.
Will I feel this way forever? It seems it.
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It certainly does feel like that, but no – just keep persisting, keep doing it, and keep walking uphill. Things will change for the better. Also, daily - look for the little things. Our Lady will guide you to those little insights, a bright spot here and there, something to be grateful for.
 
When I was doing the nine first Fridays devotion to the Sacred Heart things turned upside down the day before I went to Mass for the seventh and then subsided but returned the night before the eighth and then subsided, knowing that it would happen again it did but earlier and I went through Hell for few weeks before the ninth and final Mass and then all seemed to disappear.

Persevere, Satan wants to stop you!
 
It sounds like your family are awful! Don’t let them get you down - there is jealousy in their taunting I think. I seriously admire your strength (sounds greater than mine) and I pray to God it doesn’t fail you. :crossrc:

I also pray you find the purpose you seek. There is much need for good in the world and an excess of evil to oppose.
 
Suggestion from someone who was helped by it during a major life change that required repurposing my life (retirement): take up the Liturgy of the Hours. It will give structure to your day. Do like monks do, make it your job.

Trust me it will help preserve your sanity, and give your day a purpose: praying for the entire Church and her members.
 
Since I started praying a lot a few months ago, I’ve had three deaths in the family, a bunch of things in my house failed or broke or were vandalized necessitating thousands of dollars of repairs, and I have gotten about four minor but bothersome illnesses that I don’t usually suffer from. I think Satan starts to pester us when we start to pray. Keep praying.
 
Tis_Bearself said:
I think Satan starts to pester us when we start to pray. Keep praying.
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I definitely think this is true! I can vaguely recall that I started a thread about this same thing a while back. The Evil One doesn’t like to see us pull closer to God!
 
Just remember…

“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward in heaven is great, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.” .5:11-12
 
When God wants to led a soul to graeter holiness he will remove all of the consolations and He will allow us to be misunderstood and it will seem like all we have are crosses. Jesus suffered and died on the cross and in order to be like Him sometimes we have to carry a heavy cross also.
 
Mystic_Banana said:
It sounds like your family are awful! Don’t let them get you down - there is jealousy in their taunting I think. I seriously admire your strength (sounds greater than mine) and I pray to God it doesn’t fail you.
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I believe my family has a generational curse on it. I’ve seen it go down through the mother side. There is no one in my family that would EVER pray with me let alone go to church with me. They’d laugh in my face if I even suggested it, and we were raised Catholic. But then Jesus was mocked in his hometown as well (who does he think he is, the Son of God!).

Thanks to everyone with their support. It’s so very hard to continue praying when the result is more suffering. Last night was bad for me, I was so depressed over my sister’s recent death and I just needed someone to talk to. Nobody was there or was too busy to even stay on the phone for 2 minutes with me. It was like I was destined to be alone. So I talked to God, by myself and told him how depressed I was. I told him that I only have him left and that he would never abandon or forsake me. But I did not feel comforted, just more silence and aloneness.

Does God disappear too at times? How can I get closer to someone who runs away from me too? I will continue with my novena and prayers and will post here and there about my resulting troubles or maybe someday a break through! God willing, I don’t know when I can ever turn this corner. I don’t even know where the corner is.
 
OraLabora said:
Suggestion from someone who was helped by it during a major life change that required repurposing my life (retirement): take up the Liturgy of the Hours. It will give structure to your day. Do like monks do, make it your job.
Trust me it will help preserve your sanity, and give your day a purpose: praying for the entire Church and her members.
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I will look that up. That sounds like a good suggestion for getting through the day.
 
I just noticed that when I was feeling my worst last night, many posters here at that same time posted for me to keep keeping on. Strangers to me, but were willing to offer advice and support. I guess that is God responding to me. He didn’t disappear, God used you to help me.

Thanks and blessings to everyone!
 
Nap66 said:
Does God disappear too at times?
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No. He never disappears. He’s right there always. If He was able to use us posters as tools to show His presence then I’m glad.

Don’t forget to talk to Mother Mary too, she is also there for her children.

I don’t know if there is a Eucharistic Adoration chapel in your area but going and sitting in His presence for a half hour might help You feel closer to Him, although He’s just as close if you don’t go to the chapel. There’s something to be said for being near the Real Presence though.

I’ll say some extra prayers for you today. God bless you
 
My family is also horrified by my rediscovery of my religious faith and my daily prayer life. My attempts to get some to come to mass with me or at least discuss matters of faith with me have been met with hostility and dismissal. I am on my own in this.

But so be it. I am following God’s calling to me. If my family will not support me in this, there is nothing I can do but pray for them. Every person has free will and can choose their own path.

A lot of people do not like when a friend or family member becomes religious, because it can reflect badly on them, in their minds. Everyone knows they are sinners and do not like when someone rises above that or becomes “holier than thou”.
 
**Prayer to the Sacred Heart, for Nap66 and anyone else reading this thread who feels God is distant or their family persecutes them for believing in God. **
by St. Margaret Mary Alacoque

O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and it will be opened to you.” Behold I knock, I seek and ask for the grace of God sending his Holy Spirit specially to Nap66 and anyone else here who feels God is distant or who has been persecuted by their own family for believing in God, so Nap66 and any other persons in this category feel God’s love and power and guidance and strength in a special way and don’t feel alone anymore.
Our Father…Hail Mary…Glory Be…
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.

O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, if you ask anything of the Father in my name, he will give it to you.” Behold, in your name, I ask the Father for the grace of God sending his Holy Spirit specially to Nap66 and anyone else here who feels God is distant or who has been persecuted by their own family for believing in God, so Nap66 and any other persons in this category feel God’s love and power and guidance and strength in a special way and don’t feel alone anymore.
Our Father…Hail Mary…Glory Be…
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.

O my Jesus, you have said: “Truly I say to you, heaven and earth will pass away but my words will not pass away.” Encouraged by your infallible words I now ask for the grace of God sending his Holy Spirit specially to Nap66 and anyone else here who feels God is distant or who has been persecuted by their own family for believing in God, so Nap66 and any other persons in this category feel God’s love and power and guidance and strength in a special way and don’t feel alone anymore.
Our Father…Hail Mary…Glory Be…
Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in you.

O Sacred Heart of Jesus, for whom it is impossible not to have compassion on the afflicted, have pity on us miserable sinners and grant us the grace which we ask of you, through the Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart of Mary, your tender Mother and ours.
Hail, Holy Queen…
St. Joseph, foster father of Jesus, pray for us. Amen.
 
Thank you Tis Bearself for your prayers. I am also sorry to hear about the troubles you went through when you first started praying. It does seem like the more you pray the more you receive troubles. When does Satan stop the attacks? Does he give up on you and soon the troubles disappear?

My sister says she doesn’t believe in the rosary because when she prayed it she only got trouble in response. She said once she stopped praying she didn’t have anymore trouble. Her life wasn’t great, it just wasn’t full of troubles. I said maybe we need to go through the troubles so WE are changed, not just our lives. If we give up on prayer then we will never change. The only thing that changes the character of people is troubles. People don’t change going through good times. Now, if you are going through troubles you can change either for the worse or the better. That is where prayer comes in, it wants to help you change for the better. That’s why Satan wants you to stop praying, he wants you to change for the worse and blame your troubles on praying, or to give up praying altogether and not change at all.

Just my ramblings on the rosary this morning. I prayed on my 13th day. Two more weeks of petition for peace and purpose. Sometimes it’s hard getting up in the morning.
 
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