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Veronica97
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I saw the thread about roses from St.Therese, and I thought I had nothing to lose and asked St. Therese to send me a rose. I have been fighting scrupulosity, and I was once again debating about whether or not I was in mortal sin (due to blasphemous thoughts) and whether or not I should go to Communion. So I asked St. Therese (silently though b/c I didn’t want the devil to hear and try to trick me) to send me a single white rose if I was in a state of Grace and a single red rose if I should go to Confession. At the same time I prayed that she send one ONLY if it were God’s will–that if God wanted me just to trust Him with no sign, I would accept that. I saw some roses on television and in a store, but I told Therese that I would know my sign only if a single rose were handed to me. A few days went by, and I thought, “This is crazy…I RARELY receive flowers…who am I kidding?” Sunday came and it was time for Communion. I hadn’t received a rose, but I said to Jesus, “If I had sinned mortally, I would know it, and since I have doubts, I am going to trust in your mercy and receive you. I love you and you know those are my TRUE feelings.” Later that evening, I decided to go through a bunch of coupons from the newspaper that I had been letting pile up for a few weeks. I sat down with my scissors and worked for quite a while. Finally, I turned the page and there was an ad for a ring…with a SINGLE WHITE ROSE on it!! And I was holding the page in my hand!! I smiled b/c I felt that was my sign. I just feel like Jesus didn’t want me to see that until AFTER I had put my trust in Him and stopped worrying.