Rumours that I was not grateful for something

[Zerg]

People I know despise me for being ungrateful. I do not feel that way, at least intentionally. I do regret saying things to remedy the situation, but it didn’t work.

I have this inate anger in me that is related to something else, because I felt like I was wronged and tried to bottle it inside. Now I know how people feel and why I was despised.

My mistake could be left to interpretation, because I had no motives. I have tried apologizing, I think I would like to apologize again but when the time is right.

I feel like a horrible person and it take the rest of my life to feel forgiven.

What could I possibly do?

 

[GospelOfMatthew]

You are in my prayers

 

[Annie]

This sounds like the sort of thing which is best discussed with a trusted adult advisor with whom you can speak more fully and who knows you in real life.