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Robert_Burns
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All of us who love the EF feel the same way. How do you cope? By knowing that GOD never fails those who persevere in his TRUTHS. I only attend the EF for some of the reasons you spoke about. Pray the Holy Rosary. Live the faith. There are obviously Heretics who have infilltrated Holy Mother the Church and you will no doubt come across some. People who think Women should be Priests or people who find nothing wrong with homosexuality people who divorce and remarry etc. Know this - Our Church teaches the same truths it has always taught. Pray and Learn as much as possible about your faith. You will spot these wolves in sheeps clothing and when you do you can avoid them. Now I know some may attack me for saying some of these things - But I dont care. I am Catholic. And GOD Willing I will be until the day I die. Thats how I cope. Welcome to the Church. It is easy to cope when you serve GOD not men. His yoke is sweet and his burden is light.Please be nice to me - I’m a college student and recent convert to the Church and I’m just trying to figure things out. I really, really don’t want this thread to turn into a fight.
To get to the point … I have attended OF Masses since I became interested in the Church and throughout my conversion process. I love the Mass, but as my spiritual life has deepened I have begun to be troubled by certain elements (i.e. the “sign of peace”, a - to me - distracting episode that for some reason has been placed at the pivotal moment after the consecration and before asking God for mercy) as well as some significant abuses that I have seen from a number of different priests lately, at different parishes - some of these abuses were extensive and appalling, and the laity just went along with everything. I go to daily Mass and these Masses are reverent but I have begun to actually dread Sunday Mass for various reasons.
Largely because of this, yesterday I went to the only local EF. It was a low Mass with a very elderly priest and almost no one there. It was beautiful … but I can’t even express how miserable I felt afterwards and still feel … taking part in the ancient rite only confirmed the painful growing feeling that the current OF was a real misstep for the Church. It is incomprehensible to me why the old rite was done away with so drastically. It was also painful to see how few people there were, and how much difficulty this priest has in being able to celebrate this Mass. And it’s perplexing to me to see so much hostility aimed against those who love this rite.
I have a strange feeling of mourning as if it has finally been brought home to me how much the Church that I have just joined, that I love, is struggling. I don’t know how to express it. I keep crying uncontrollably. I feel adrift as if I don’t know anymore how or where to anchor myself spiritually. When I pray I feel abandoned by God and I wonder if I have done something wrong.
Has anyone felt this way … and if so … how do you cope?
Pax
