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Today google directed me to a website called “Christianity today”, that I later found to be “a media ministry for the evangelical church”, and something in an article caught my attention…excerpt below:
Notice how this protestant brother experiences a clash between what he believes in good faith and what his spirit experiences: on one side, the “delusion” of “imputed righteousness”: “I am a Christian, so God sees me as perfect as Christ, even though I am a sinner”. On the other hand, the voice of the Spirit saying: “it is not so.” He does not question grace, love, or forgiveness… rather, he doesn’t feel it. He doesn’t feel in a state of grace. He doesn’t feel forgiven.
He obviously has no other choice than to turn on to himself, to trust in himself. He is forced to carry the full burden. His frustration increases.
However, we cannot doubt, not even for a second, that he was truly trying to serve Christ rather than sin: for the Spirit is clearly seen at work in his words. We see the Spirit moving him not to accepting his current state (as his friend whom he mentions in the article gave up on the fight for chastity) but rather, to seek something more than trusting in self, something more than reading the Bible…to seek the company of another Christian with more experience.
He goes to him because he needs help. He feels the help will come from another fellow Christian who is “a strong believer”. And the Spirit moves him to do the most helpful of all things: to confess his sins.
Immediately there is a sense of relief from the very motion of confessing publicly his hidden sins. He benefits from a devout friend who is ready to listen, give wise advice, and pray.
We further see the Spirit at work in him as he describes in a few lines how his life changed: prayer and reading Scripture, yes, but also…serving other people, doing what is right…And his prayer: his soul longs for fellow people who remind one another that God loves us even when we sin…for a church that feeds the holy side…
Why, if he is already saved and his sinfulness is cloaked under the imputed righteousness of Christ, does his soul feel that there is a holy side that needs to be alimented? Why does his soul feel that this holy side can grow solely through a church that offers fruits of holiness and members who remind one another of God’s love in time of temptation and sin?
There is something quite profound that this honest writer reveals…something that strikes at the heart of the very idea of protestantism and that reminds us all of the Church of Christ, the city on the hill that cannot be hidden, and of the Church Fathers and their forgotten teachings…how difficult is the path for someone who believes that in God’s eyes he is already perfect! He will no longer see the Good Shepherd going out looking for him, he will no longer see the merciful father ready to forgive and embrace and celebrate his return, he will no longer feel st. Paul’s motivation to “work out our salvation”, “discipline our body”, “run as to win the race”… and how difficult is the path when the majestic apostolic power of Confession and Reconciliation, that awe-inspiring Sacrament called by our Eastern brethren “Holy Mystery of Reconciliation”, is hidden from their sight…
God, of course, is not tied to His Sacraments…we trust in His Divine Providence that will find ways to help our brother and all those who are not in full communion with the Church and thus do not have access to the life-giving spring of the Seven Sacraments that Our Lord has given us as a caring Bridegroom offers nuptial gifts to a most beloved spouse…however, one cannot help but realize two things:
I knew this wasn’t true. I knew I was a Christian. And I knew God saw me as perfect and loveable as he saw his very own Son. I knew all this. Grace. Love. Forgiveness.
But I didn’t feel it. And I grew more and more depressed and frustrated with myself. I’d promise myself over and over that I wouldn’t mess up again, only to repeat my mistakes.
…] I knew I was headed down the same path. So I got help. One day, I was hanging out with a close friend who was a strong believer. Out of nowhere, I told him everything. My voice shaking, I confessed that …] I asked him for help. We prayed together.
…] This man had no great wisdom we lacked, no secret to fighting the drawing power …] But what he did was listen, give us wise advice and pray. He became a caring mentor to all of us.
Immediately a few things shine brightly to the Catholic eye: before the harsh reality of spiritual warfare, all wishful thinking breaks down.…] I spend time in silence asking God to speak to me. I pray, worship, serve other people. …] And I pray: "God, help me do what’s right today. …] Make us love you more than ourselves and surround us with people who remind us that you love us even when we mess up. Surround us with friends and a church that feed the holy side of us
Notice how this protestant brother experiences a clash between what he believes in good faith and what his spirit experiences: on one side, the “delusion” of “imputed righteousness”: “I am a Christian, so God sees me as perfect as Christ, even though I am a sinner”. On the other hand, the voice of the Spirit saying: “it is not so.” He does not question grace, love, or forgiveness… rather, he doesn’t feel it. He doesn’t feel in a state of grace. He doesn’t feel forgiven.
He obviously has no other choice than to turn on to himself, to trust in himself. He is forced to carry the full burden. His frustration increases.
However, we cannot doubt, not even for a second, that he was truly trying to serve Christ rather than sin: for the Spirit is clearly seen at work in his words. We see the Spirit moving him not to accepting his current state (as his friend whom he mentions in the article gave up on the fight for chastity) but rather, to seek something more than trusting in self, something more than reading the Bible…to seek the company of another Christian with more experience.
He goes to him because he needs help. He feels the help will come from another fellow Christian who is “a strong believer”. And the Spirit moves him to do the most helpful of all things: to confess his sins.
Immediately there is a sense of relief from the very motion of confessing publicly his hidden sins. He benefits from a devout friend who is ready to listen, give wise advice, and pray.
We further see the Spirit at work in him as he describes in a few lines how his life changed: prayer and reading Scripture, yes, but also…serving other people, doing what is right…And his prayer: his soul longs for fellow people who remind one another that God loves us even when we sin…for a church that feeds the holy side…
Why, if he is already saved and his sinfulness is cloaked under the imputed righteousness of Christ, does his soul feel that there is a holy side that needs to be alimented? Why does his soul feel that this holy side can grow solely through a church that offers fruits of holiness and members who remind one another of God’s love in time of temptation and sin?
There is something quite profound that this honest writer reveals…something that strikes at the heart of the very idea of protestantism and that reminds us all of the Church of Christ, the city on the hill that cannot be hidden, and of the Church Fathers and their forgotten teachings…how difficult is the path for someone who believes that in God’s eyes he is already perfect! He will no longer see the Good Shepherd going out looking for him, he will no longer see the merciful father ready to forgive and embrace and celebrate his return, he will no longer feel st. Paul’s motivation to “work out our salvation”, “discipline our body”, “run as to win the race”… and how difficult is the path when the majestic apostolic power of Confession and Reconciliation, that awe-inspiring Sacrament called by our Eastern brethren “Holy Mystery of Reconciliation”, is hidden from their sight…
God, of course, is not tied to His Sacraments…we trust in His Divine Providence that will find ways to help our brother and all those who are not in full communion with the Church and thus do not have access to the life-giving spring of the Seven Sacraments that Our Lord has given us as a caring Bridegroom offers nuptial gifts to a most beloved spouse…however, one cannot help but realize two things:
- in the reality of his words and of his struggle, we can appreciate the worth of that doctrine which has been preserved unadulterated within the Catholic Church
- and we are also moved to a greater appreciation of that which is sometimes taken for granted (I speak here for myself, of course, but given my lack of uniqueness I am certain that others will feel the same way)