Tonight there was a short message on EWTN from the writings of Catherine of Siena, which I thought I would share with you. I’m not going to quote it, as it’s very long. I’ll do my best to paraphrase it and interpret it within the context of her mystical theology.
Catherine discovered that when the soul recognizes her lust and despises it, then God’s love is able to enter the soul and make her his own. When the soul experiences God’s love she can do nothing else but love her neighbour, for love of God and love of neighbour are the same.
We have to understand Catherine’s statement in the context of her spiritual theology. She is in no way suggesting that human sexuality or the libido is something to be hated. Catherine compared the union of the soul and God to the experience in the union between a loving husband and wife. Obviously, she was not against human sexuality.
Lust, in Catherine’s theology is the desire for all physical things that stand in the way of a pure heart. This can be sex (not sexuality); the obsession with the body as we see in today’s world; the preoccupation with our personal satisfaction; the attachment to physical beauty instead of virtue; and the excessive worry about health.
Now, Catherine would never tell a married couple that they should not feel any attraction toward each other. She understood that such an attraction between husband and wife is a sign of the attraction between Christ and the Church and the soul and Christ. On the other hand, we have developed a multi-billion dollar physical fitness industry, fashion industry, cosmetic industry, including cosmetic surgery, in a world where millions go to bed hungry. We obsess over health to the point that we no longer want to stay healthy in order to serve, but simply because we want to live longer. Our love of health is all about our love for ourselves, not those whom we serve
We enter a store and we purchase something because it looks good on us or because we like it, not because we need it. This is preoccupation with our personal satisfaction. While there is nothing wrong with liking nice things or even owning nice things, there is something terribly wrong when the person never remembers that organizations such as Salvation Army, Goodwill, Catholic Charities and others are in need of food, clothing and funds to serve the poor. There is a conflict here between what we profess to believe as Catholics and how we live.
Catherine spent her life taking care of lepers, feeding the poor with her own money, taking in the homeless into her home, mediating conflicts instead of causing them, bringing people to reconciliation. She did not do these things because she was a humanitarian, but because her soul was filled by the love of Christ. Once the soul is filled by God’s love, it can do nothing else but love its neighbour.
The love in our soul is like a babe in a mother’s womb. It must come forth and enter the world. Just like the pregnant mother must give birth, Catherine also taught that the soul pregnant with God’s love must also give birth to love.
But there was a condition. This love had no feelings, no emotions, and no sense of satisfaction. It was all in the intellect. True love exists in the mind. One knows that one is loved and one knows that one is loving. One feels nothing. Emotions may be present, but they are neither necessary nor desirable, because we become too attached to feeling a sense of satisfaction. This is love with hooks. It is loving so that we can feel good.
True love does not seek satisfaction, it only seeks to give. If the satisfaction comes, true love thanks God for the gift. True love understands that the sense of satisfaction that we receive from loving is simply God’s way of saying, “Thank you.” But since God does not owe us anything, he does not owe us thanks. A “Thank you” from God is another gift from the Divine to the soul, another grace.
To reach this level where the soul is filled so much of God’s love so that it gives birth to love for neighbour, the individual must first sacrifice any physical desires that do not lead to God or to the good of the Mystical Body.
JR