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I believe this is where the Capuchin’s idea of the hermitage comes in handy. Francis created this concept that he borrowed from the Desert Fathers. He called it a hermitage. It is a place that one goes to where one can be alone and reflect and think things through. It can be a weekend at the beach, a retreat house, camping, a quiet day in the country or at the park. The point is that one takes time out to be alone with one’s self and with God. Only in silence does one really come to know the truth of who one is before God.I’d like to focus on just this one thought for a minute.
I have often wondered if what we see among those who are so outspoken against the Church and it’s leaders, is just a response against the Church for perceived or real offenses that have caused deep emotional wounds; and there has not been a candid exploration by the individuals or whatever groups they congregate in, as to what really needs to happen within themselves to move forward. It’s always easier to demand of others than to demand of ourselves.
Sometimes we just need to take a step back when we are really really angry and ask ourselves some honest questions, being prepared to deal with the honest answers. This takes courage, because more often than not, what we discover is not what we thought was there all along, but something altogether different, sometimes altogether us and not them.
The Holy Spirit is always looking for an honest inquirer, always waiting and willing to show us the truth of a matter if we honestly want to know it. Courage and humility. Tough things, but necessary *always *when holiness is our goal.
St. Francis said “I am what I am before God, nothing else.” Notice that the focus is on the “I”. One wastes one’s time and God’s if we spend it wondering what is wrong with the Church or with the world, before one asks “who am I?”
Before I can see the other as the Beloved of God, I must reflect on the Baptism of Jesus. When Jesus comes out of the Jordan the Holy Spirit comes over him and says, “You are my Beloved, on whom my favour rests.”
These words were not spoken just for Jesus. They were spoken for humanity. In his incarnation, Jesus takes upon himself our humanity. Therefore, the human Jesus, who is the Beloved of the Father stands in place for all of us.
Unless we can reconcile ourselves to the idea that we are Beloved, we will never be able to see others as Beloved of the same Father. We will always see in them their faults and weakness. This is typical psychological phenomenon called displacement. One feels unlvoed or unloveable.
Our society has a serious problem with self-esteem. People feel that they are unloveable, because they have not learned that they are Beloved of the Father. Therefore, tend to go aorund finding fault. If I can find fault with that or with whom is supposed to be loveable, I can somehow justify my own weakness by blaming it on those in power or in authority, such as the Church.
I can say that the Church is weak or that the Church is wrong. This justifies me for being wrong. The worse part is that most of the time, there is nothing wrong with me, other than the fact that I don’t accept myself as I am.
This is why it’s so important to do as Francis taught us, to go to the hermitage and say, “I am what I am before God, nothing else,” and then let God tell us what I am and who I am in his eyes. Once I come to that knowledge I will realize that others are the same as me, they are sinful, weak, and graced by God’s love.
JR