I am neither christianist nor Buddhist. “Roamin’ Catholic” is a play on “Roman” denoting my having had to leave the Church due to its inadequate resources for answering my questions relative to a profound and life transforming experience despite arduous inquiry both in its literature and its clerics. Later, after regaining some stability, I discovered a system that not only fully explained everything, including my formerly well catechized and zealous Catholicism, but a far broader scope of considerations as well. That was and is truly Catholic in the original sense of that word.
Though it is reasonable and a useful tool in the pursuit of self awareness to distinguish between a “true” and “false” self, the ordinary religious way of doing that is counterproductive in an actual “spiritual” practice, especially as you delineated. In my terminology
anything attributable to person, though extant, is perforce false. The kind of consideration you propose is itself a turbulence that keeps one’s attention on limits not applicable to Soul. Person is itself “false” self. The question is, does one know that, and if so how? And if person is false, though experienced, what is True? Such an inquiry is an exceptionally revealing pursuit. Being a teacher, you might appreciate
youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU&feature=related as a primer in this facet of consideration. It is an amazing report of the phase of awareness we don’t ordinarily experience as described clinically by a neurosurgeon as her experience having a stroke. Very educational.
Your exposition on soul and grace is very convoluted and impractical, but standard RC fare. Simplistically put, God does not reside “in” a soul, but “as” a soul, which fact is discoverable experientially. I’m quite sure that that is what happened to Aquinas near the end. “Divinized” is a fair name for a process of transfiguration by grace. But it is not an action
on a soul. It is an action on a mind that becomes, through grace, transparent to the always already pre-existing condition of the Soul. It is the feeling nature’s transformation/transfiguration that allows the appearance of change due to an elevated awareness of the experiential actuality of God as the Source of ALL. In one aspect your soul IS. In another, your
experience of it is built by claiming and living attributes commensurate with the Divine. In other words, “divinization” in practice is a transmutation of from i-dentity to "I"dentity, if we keep in mind the unfortunate limitation of the common English speaker’s ignorance of the intended use of “I” in parable and Wisdom teaching.
I agree that it is wonderful to spin beautiful sounding phrases, but they are far more than that. They are statements gleaned from my experience. Those who have had experiences like mine, some far more profound, easily understand what I am saying because they have the same referents. In the mean time what I say might simply be to others a charge to change discovered later, or an irritant. Or they mean nothing to the listener. Any of those is attributable to the listener, and just fine.
“When Jesus spoke in parables He was using simple stories for profound meaning but He was not trying to hide His meanings or confuse his listeners. He was asking them to dwell on the words and meditate on them. He allows us to do the same and with the light of tradition and Church teaching we can mine these stories to the depth allowed us by God through His Holy Spirit.” Though there is yet another step, your understanding of parables is spot on. If there is “hidden” meaning in them, it is hidden due to the lack of interest and diligence on the part of the listener. The total transparency of a parable is a precious gift. And yet, Jesus is said to have taken His disciples aside and revealed things in fullness.
"…so don’t tempt me or anyone with some conclusion that the ‘self’ has that same capacity. That would be Satan speaking. I guess in your understanding that might be so. However, that you could say that in such a way, if you are referring to my use of “Self,” it is clear that you are yet in the trap that English so cleverly provides as I described in my last post. The Self I refer to is not you, me, anyone, or person. It does not apply or work in your statement in its actual meaning. It has, as I pointed to, an entirely different meaning.
And back to the topic, the “divinization” referred to earlier is itself the conversion of “Satan” as played out in your own soul propensity. “Satan” is not “a” person. “Satan” is “person” itself as that aspect of your awareness that has you divided against yourself. That brings us back to the “quote” that started your questions. And yes, there is an “irresistible” grace. I could not speak this way had I not received such. I didn’t personally do it. It happened. Perhaps some day you may see how that can be.
And yes, God is the initiator and end of ALL.