Scared about illness

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Hey guys,

I have received rather shocking news about yet another thing my mom either purposefully lied about or was too ignorant to give me the full truth on. Needless to say I am outraged and terrified.

See, my mother has hepatitus B and C. When she found out, she had us tested for B only. When the results came back negative, she had us immunized for B. When I asked about C, she told me (erroneously) that if you don’t have B, you can’t have C. Now, this may be her happy-go-lucky hopefulness that since we didn’t catch B (which is more communicable) we didn’t catch C. Well, whether or not I had it at that time, I was put in further danger.

When I was 17, she tried killing herself by slitting her wrists right in front of me repeatedly. I had to grab her and throw her to the ground and rip the razor out of her hand. I held her there until my brother could call 911 and in all her thrashing and screaming I got covered in a good amount of infected blood. I had no cuts, and the blood was mainly on my hands, arms, and clothes. I washed the blood off immediately when the paramedics arrived, and changed, throwing my soiled clothes in the laundry. I don’t think any got on my face. I asked a doctor about this later, and for some STUPID reason he told me that I was fine and didn’t need to get tested.

I got married some time later.

I am now 24, and finished a blood-borne pathogen course and I called my doctor to get in and get tested. I am terrified. I swore to myself that I was going to break away from my mother’s self-destructive ways that landed her with these illnesses in the first place. I don’t want to die, and I don’t want to have to live celibate with my husband (since I wouldn’t want him to get sick, or risk conceiving and giving birth to a child with such an illness) or worse, have already killed him with it by engaging in normal marital relations with him for the last 2 1/2 years. I am absolutely terrified and heartbroken. I’d appreciate prayers right now. This is a really dark hour for me right now.
 
Whitacre_Girl said:
Hey guys,

I have received rather shocking news about yet another thing my mom either purposefully lied about or was too ignorant to give me the full truth on. Needless to say I am outraged and terrified.

See, my mother has hepatitus B and C. When she found out, she had us tested for B only. When the results came back negative, she had us immunized for B. When I asked about C, she told me (erroneously) that if you don’t have B, you can’t have C. Now, this may be her happy-go-lucky hopefulness that since we didn’t catch B (which is more communicable) we didn’t catch C. Well, whether or not I had it at that time, I was put in further danger.

When I was 17, she tried killing herself by slitting her wrists right in front of me repeatedly. I had to grab her and throw her to the ground and rip the razor out of her hand. I held her there until my brother could call 911 and in all her thrashing and screaming I got covered in a good amount of infected blood. I had no cuts, and the blood was mainly on my hands, arms, and clothes. I washed the blood off immediately when the paramedics arrived, and changed, throwing my soiled clothes in the laundry. I don’t think any got on my face. I asked a doctor about this later, and for some STUPID reason he told me that I was fine and didn’t need to get tested.

I got married some time later.

I am now 24, and finished a blood-borne pathogen course and I called my doctor to get in and get tested. I am terrified. I swore to myself that I was going to break away from my mother’s self-destructive ways that landed her with these illnesses in the first place. I don’t want to die, and I don’t want to have to live celibate with my husband (since I wouldn’t want him to get sick, or risk conceiving and giving birth to a child with such an illness) or worse, have already killed him with it by engaging in normal marital relations with him for the last 2 1/2 years. I am absolutely terrified and heartbroken. I’d appreciate prayers right now. This is a really dark hour for me right now.
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I was once a case-manager for an institution that cared for people with HIV. One time I had to go to a client’s house to follow-up on her drug abuse rehabilitation. She was out of her mind stoned and had cut herself and there was blood on a lot of surfaces. That was a scary situation. I can’t take away the darkness but I can tell you that the Lord is faithful. I haven’t experienced any symptoms, but it is always in the back of my mind. And, Satan will take it and run with it. Ask the Lord for protection against his mental attacks. I will be praying for you, seriously.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen.
 
Edwardjohn said:
I was once a case-manager for an institution that cared for people with HIV. One time I had to go to a client’s house to follow-up on her drug abuse rehabilitation. She was out of her mind stoned and had cut herself and there was blood on a lot of surfaces. That was a scary situation. I can’t take away the darkness but I can tell you that the Lord is faithful. I haven’t experienced any symptoms, but it is always in the back of my mind. And, Satan will take it and run with it. Ask the Lord for protection against his mental attacks. I will be praying for you, seriously.
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Thank you very much. This has been in the back of my mind for a long time, but I had the false assurances of rather ignorant people that just got dashed.
 
wolfgang said:
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen.
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In prayer for you also. Commit this to the Lord.
In His love,
mlz
 
Thank you all for the prayers.

I have been talking to my husband about this all night. I’ve been very worried. He is going to pray, but thinks I am being ridiculous. He reminded me that about a year before we were married I gave blood for a blood drive. He said that if the questionnaire didn’t raise any alarms, and that the blood test they run on all blood didn’t show any infection in mine (especially since this was 4 years after my possible exposure) then I just couldn’t have it, and was as good as already tested. Especially since they called me like crazy to continue to give.

I’m still anxious, and I am going to the doctor tomorrow.
 
Thanks for the prayers. I will be finding out in just a few more days, I hope.
 
Hey guys, just posting an update.

The lab results came back yesterday, and I received a clean bill of health!!

However, the doctor did confirm that my mother never finished getting me my immunizations, so I have to go in and get boosters up the you-know-what. Basically, I am immune to NOTHING. Lovely. LOL
 
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Yay for the clean bill of health. I hear you about the boosters, when I was pregnant it was discovered that I no longer had the rubella immunity (even though I had all of my booster) and that I was immune to the chicken pox (even though I had never had it) so I had to get the rubella shot after I gave birth.

Praying for you that you can escape completely the dark cloud that you grew up under.
 
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