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I have. I was raised as a Bible-crazy evangelical Protestant, and so spent most of my early life not just immersed in Bible reading, end to end (our church preached through the whole Bible, chronologically, over and over, as a rule!), but memorization, Greek and Hebrew root and word analysis, systematic theology and integration of (approved) commentaries for Bible Study, etc. I unfortunately have the pedigree of the “whole nine yards” on that issue.Wow…I Love God not because I’m afraid of going to hell, but because He is a Good and Loving God. Have you ever read the entire old and new testaments and the catechism? If you want to learn about God these would be good sources.
I eventually had to abandoned Protestantism, and for a couple years got into orbit preparing to “swim the Tiber”. That’s how I found this forum! I spent time talking to priests IRL, and discussing/debating/learning from others online. I read the catechism, and paid attention, as this was a big move that I was determined was going to be the “last jump” to the “faith I’d have for the rest of my days”. I read all manner of recommended books. I read a thousand threads, here, and from other Catholic blogs and forums.
I may be completely wrong, evil, mistaken, but if so, it won’t be because I’m not familiar. I’m the one with the least excuse of any atheist you’d ever find in terms of having had a rich, full immersion in the “real deal” beliefs, practices and values of the Christian faith. I’m a pain in the you-know-what because I’ve read, discussed and debated so many parts of applied Christian thought that many of my (still devout) Christian friends couldn’t be bothered by, from supralapsarian soteriology, to the Thomistic concept of esse, to the fundamentals of health-and-wealth rhema-based pentacostalism.
Maybe all that nonsense is/was part of the problem, I’ll grant. But I don’t think the problem is one of non-familiarity. I’m still surprised by how many Catholics I talk to who seem only marginally familiar with the Catechism. The Catechism reading and contemplation was what triggered the abandonment of all of Christianity. I was very “into it” for a long time, trying to get to a place where I could swim the Tiber and make it stick, and have it be a joyous, lasting conversion.
Yes, Jesus said to Love you God will all your heart mind and soul and He also said that the second and equal commandment is to Love your neighbor and your enemy. We show God that we Love Him when we Love our neighbor and our enemies. We are like God when we Love all people. We are like God when we hate evil and sin.
It gets tedious to have to always, in every discussion about God, point out that I DON’T BELIEVE GOD EXISTS. I do point this out regularly, and the label by user name that says “Atheist” fairly announces it, as well, I think. It’s just an unbearable chore to have to qualify every statement about God with “Note that I’m referring to the Christian imagination of God; I don’t think any such entity actually exists”.If you think that God is evil then please explain to me why He is keeping you alive?
It would be great if that caveat were understood to be implicit in my posts, across the board.
I don’t think God exists, therefore I don’t believe God is keeping me alive.
If the Christian God does exist, then my understanding is that he is keeping me alive to show some measure of forbearance with my rejection of him, and classification of him as evil, before I’m condemned to hell, to receive what is on the Christian view is my deserved eternal torment. And all of this is to God’s glory, on the Christian view, of course, because God is holy, and just. My eternal torment will testify to the holiness and perfect justice of God, who is to be praised and worshiped without ceasing for all eternity.
In letting me live as long as he does, God will show a measure of tolerance, before visiting final and eternal justice upon me. So much greater is the Christian God that I’m given these moments which I don’t deserve. I am the recipient of grace from the God I openly curse in surviving through each day that I do.
Right?
-TS