I hope you’re able to find someone to talk about this with.
I’ve had problems in the past, going to my parish and two others and being blown off like I was a nut.
If I pray, go to church, and meditate with my rosary, things are okay. If I lapse, things start happening. IE: scratches all over my body (In places I can’t even reach), bruising and hand prints on my neck in the middle of the night, hearing muffled voices, blacking out for periods at a time with no idea how long I’ve been out, but being told I was carrying on in anger.
I don’t think a lot of the churches know how to handle these types of situations.
Pray you get the answers and help you need.