Self pity-mortal or venial?

[Love_is]

Hey all,
So recently I’ve been battling with pride and self pity…Sometimes I’ll get so mad at myself that I am self pitying myself and then pity myself even more because I do get mad (confusing, right?) but just this morning I was pitying myself because I’m so sinful and I was just crying and was thinking “God can do the impossible, don’t give up hope, He can help me” but at the same time I had the thought that I knew I was pitying myself but I thought “I know I am, but I don’t care” just because I was so absorbed in myself. But then I willfully thought “No, i do care, i do care if i offend God” but i couldnt fully get out of the self pity and i didnt make a huge effort to get out except asking God to help me so Was this a mortal sin? The fact that I knew it was a sin and “didn’t care”? I thought it was a venial sin but when I had the thought “I don’t care” cross my mind then I wasn’t sure…Thanks! And I hope I made sense…

 

[Pfaffenhoffen]

Hey all,
So recently I’ve been battling with pride and self pity…Sometimes I’ll get so mad at myself that I am self pitying myself and then pity myself even more because I do get mad (confusing, right?) but just this morning I was pitying myself because I’m so sinful and I was just crying and was thinking “God can do the impossible, don’t give up hope, He can help me” but at the same time I had the thought that I knew I was pitying myself but I thought “I know I am, but I don’t care” just because I was so absorbed in myself. But then I willfully thought “No, i do care, i do care if i offend God” but i couldnt fully get out of the self pity and i didnt make a huge effort to get out except asking God to help me so Was this a mortal sin? The fact that I knew it was a sin and “didn’t care”? I thought it was a venial sin but when I had the thought “I don’t care” cross my mind then I wasn’t sure…Thanks! And I hope I made sense…

Ask for God’s forgiveness and move on.
Repeat as many times and needed and move on.
Move on…

 

[Love_is]

I’m going to Mass soon and need to know if I can receive the Holy Eucharist

 

[constantconvert]

Although you thought “I don’t care” which was consent for your sin, you quickly realized that you do care. Also, self pity is not a grave matter. Receive Christ this morning, and feel better

 

[JRKH]

You are OK to receive. The fact that you feel the need to ask indicates that you have not mortally sinned.

Be at Peace on this.

That said, pride and self pity are serious matters. I hope that you have a regular confessor and have discussed these things with him.

Peace
James

 

[Samuel63]

I recommend frequent confession also. I go on the first and third saturday each month. For a few years, I went to many different priests. I found a very holy priest this past year and am so pleased. He is a wonderful man and I see him more or less consistently now. When traveling on business I have to see other priests still.

I hope you have the same experience of finding a great priest. It is very uplifting to receive absolution and I believe this practice helps me to accelerate in progress toward holiness.

I am filled with joy for many days after confession. What a great gift!

 

[AlanFromWichita]

I’m interested in what “flavor” of self-pity you are dealing with.

For example, do you feel like you’ve been dealt a bad set of circumstances now or in the past? Do you think you are responsible for being miserable and blame yourself – and then of course pity yourself that you blame yourself, and maybe even blame yourself for blaming yourself. Do you compare yourself to others and if so, on what bases?

This kind of thinking, to me, seems “recursive,” and you can make a logical loop that may feel like you’ll never get out of. But like you said, with God anything can be done, and you can break this cycle.

What can we posters maybe help you with, or if you want tell us more about yourself and we’ll have more to go on?

Alan

 

[Love_is]

Thank you all for your replies I did end up receiving the Holy Eucharist, thanks be to God