Fear of flying
I used to like flying. About ten years ago during a family holiday trip we encountered very bad turbulence as the plane was about to land. Amidst the tighten your seat belt sign and the bump, my three year old daughter tucked at my sleeves, “Dad, are we going to fall down?” “No, honey, the pilot is going to bring us playing roller coaster”. It was meant as a joke to soothe her inquisitive mind. She seemed assured but nevertheless snuggled into my arm.
Not long after that I was struck by news of airplane crash, nearly missed mid-air collision and possibility of terrorist airplane sabotage. My mind recalled what my daughter had said and I wonder if it could happen after all. In my next few air trips I began to feel uneasy every time there was turbulence. Shortly after that I noticed that I was really terrified being in mid-air in an airplane. Subsequently it became a full blown phobia of flying.
I was already quite active in my church work and one of my eager responses as I was renewed in my faith was, “I will go, Lord, wherever you send me”. That proved to be haughty promise however. I did not seem to learn from Peter, “I will lay down my life for you”.
Now my ministry required me to go to many places for meetings or running programs but these also include flying to foreign countries; Africa, Asia, South America and even some islands in the Pacific. Suddenly mission trips became a dread. Phobia of flying includes attack of inexplicable fear; you will sweat and become near hysterical as long as you are in mid-air. Interestingly, no amount of prayer seemed to work! I remember how many Hail Mary, prayer of consecration, coverage by the precious blood or even tongue thrown in, but nothing seemed to work.
Eventually I said to the Lord, “What is this Lord? If you really want me to be your disciple surely you take away this phobia, otherwise how can I serve you?” And so I had to live with the phobia; sometimes it was just bearable and I managed to stay alive but dreaded every minute of flying.
Then we started a program locally – Healing and Transformation Seminar. It is a three day retreat which we do in collaboration with a priest. It deals mainly about identifying causes of obstacles and bondages in later life as a result of something that happened during childhood or sins. Priests were needed for Confession and celebration of the Eucharist.
Usually after about a day of (name removed by moderator)ut the participants would be asked to examine themselves and to go for Confession. To help them to do it properly they can come for counseling among the more experienced leaders.
One of the participants who came to me said, “Brother, you know, I have this problem. I am terribly scared of flying. It affected my job as it requires me to travel most of the time” At this he began to cry. I thought I want to cry with him because I know how it feels but I found myself laughing in my heart. So that was it!
The Lord gave me the phobia so that I can minister to his people who are tormented by it. He could be funny at times though it was nothing funny at all to me!
Needless to say, I am completely healed of phobia of flying today.
The Lord works in many ways but I know that he ‘works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose’.
Praise the Lord.