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MNathaniel
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I’m still happy for your part that you had this experience.Unfortunately this is the overwhelming attitude I’ve seen with regards to this issue. I was blessed to have a priest and bishop who took it seriously in my case.
I’m at almost three months now without the Eucharist or surety of any sacrament I’ve ever received, and I’m no longer angry. I have sort of accepted that this period of loss may be a just temporal punishment for my past sins (I can’t say I deserve good things, so in that sense this situation is fine – and I do still see other gratuitous blessings of God around me that I’m thankful for). And maybe God yet plans to bring something good out of it.
At the same time, the “it” will have to include how close to the edge this situation takes me in terms of trying to reconcile and understand what the Church really is, and how to be one of her members – and whether I even still want to be one. It really does go that fundamentally deep, for me. I’m not sure whether the enemy could have chosen a more effective weapon against me. The degree of mess I’m trying to sort through over here… anyway. I haven’t been publicly talking about it lately and will probably go back to same. But this thread prompted something, I guess. Certainly with regards to the fact that I do have an opinion on this topic: that if simple safeguards could ensure confidence in sacraments for all, and help anyone else avoid the situation I’m in, I’m all for those safeguards, and am mystified by the intensity of opposition to them.