Though she may not be a god, Catholics do view her as an important instrument (not simply a virgin, randomly picked by God, to give birth to Jesus). Then there’s the whole thing about Mary being crowned in heaven, being the Queen, etc. I’ve always believed Mary was just the lucky person involved in the situation. She was no better or worse than me, but had faith, and trusted God, when approached by an angel.
Do you really think that God does anything randomly - especially concern His selection of the woman to give birth to the Son Incarnate? Being “lucky” has nothing to do with God’s Plan of Salvation in which He especially created and prepared this humble Virgin to bear and nurture Our Savior.
I’ve noticed among many Protestants a great hesitancy to think that anyone, including the Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of the Divine Savior and hence Mother of God, being at an advantage - by God’s predilection - in the Trinitarian life. This hesitancy/denial appears when there is a diminished understanding of what the grace flowing from Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit accomplishes in the faithful soul as he or she progresses (hopefully) in this Christ-life; they do not understand that we are being divinized (“do you not know you have become partakers of the divine nature?”), but, instead, see grace as something that covers rather than transforms our human nature.
A Catholic, otoh, knows that Mary’s participation in the life of the Trinity (a participation to which we are all called) is of a higher “status” or “role” than ours or any of the Saints in heaven, canonized or not. The Catholic says, “Yes, this is what we have by grace and since these is what we have the Blessed and Ever-Virgin Mary - by grace - has it in spades!”
Of course there is an infinite distance between the humanity of Mary and the divinity of Christ. Mary’s nature is human, though elevated to participation in the Divine nature, while Christ’s nature is both Divine and human. But there is no distance between the Hearts of the Son and Mother - between the New Covenant and she who is the Ark of the New Covenant (cf. 2 Sam 6:1-11 & Luke 1:39-56.)
“What is the place of Mary herself in relation to God? It is that he brought her, as he did all the other children of earth, out of nothing - although He has since then exalted her to a point of grace immense and inconceivable, nevertheless, in comparison to her Maker, she still remains as nothing. Indeed, she is - far more than any other - HIS creature, because he has wrought more in her than in any other of his creatures. The greater the things he does to her, the more she becomes the work of his hands.” (From Down to Earth: The New Protestant View of the Virgin Mary.)
If the R.C.I.A. program you attend is a good one, then it should help you grow in your understanding - and do away with your misconceptions - of the Church’s teaching regarding the Blessed Mother and the other issues which cause you concern.
I’m not protesting anything. I accept some of the Church’s teachings, but others I’m not so sure on. The same goes for the government. Do you accept everything the government says and does, or do you take something here and there, and in your mind, build, what you believe, would be the perfect utopia?
As a Catholic I believe all that the Church teaches of faith and morals.
You may do the same someday, also!
So it defeats the purpose of confirmation to go through with it with soooo many disbeliefs and doubts. It will be better for you if you wait.