Why are you unbaptized? Are you currently going through RCIA? If so, the devil is definitely having a good time trying to tempt you to despair. He doesn’t want you to be baptized and have all your sins forgiven! And he most certainly doesn’t want you to receive Jesus in the Eucharist! At the same time, we must remember that when Jesus looked at His disciples (after so many others had walked away) and asked them if they wanted to leave too, Peter said, “To whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” That’s it–in a nutshell. We can live a life here without God and then spend eternity without Him. Or we can live a life here as a Christian and have eternal life. Jesus said, “Take up your cross and follow me.” He never said it would be easy. Seek a relationship with Jesus above all things–He is the only One who can sustain you through this. Ask Mary every day to help you grow closer to her Son. I see you are a “Prayer Warrior”. May I suggest that the devil does not want you to pray for the salvation of others? Think about it. If you are given to despair and never become a Christian, then you will not be praying for others and they will not receive the Graces they might have received as a result. Our Lady of Fatima said that many souls go to Hell because there is no one to pray for them. I hope you will ponder this in your heart. God bless.