Sincere Prayer or?

[DanishGuy]

I pray. I try to pray at least.
But it feels as if I am only praying to myself.

It feels as if I only pray in order to feel relieved from my stress or sense of having sinned greatly. But I am not sure if I mean what I say…

I try to live a life without sin. But today for instance I read a comment on YouTube that mocked our Lord Jesus Christ. And I think I sort of intuitively smiled out of amusement.
How could I do such a wicked thing? And I am not sure if I even did so but I think I did, I am trying to remember exactly what happened.

I don’t even feel sorry for sinning, really. Although I really want to… I just can’t force those feelings within me… I am even getting frustrated about this, why can’t I feel anything, am I beyond hope? I don’t think anyone is but it feels that way sometimes.

I want to love Jesus, I want to hate my sin.
Please pray for me. I am a 19 year old Dane.

I am not Catholic yet BTW.

 

[Katherine438]

My best advice is to buy this book …

Diary: Divine Mercy in My Soul Paperback – February 15, 2005
by Maria Faustina Kowalska (Author)

When you read it, pray to Jesus to open your heart … it should help.

Also don’t be so hard on yourself … no one is perfect … that’s why when you join the Catholic Church you will find a wonderful sacrament called Confession … we are all sinners … we need to cling to Jesus … He will bring us home if we cling to Him.

You will be in my prayers … God Bless You.