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I have a sense I was at least partially aware that I was dreaming, almost like a lucid dream though I couldn’t control everything. It all started when I dreamed that I was flying through walls and flying over a pretty city, and at that point, I know I was semi-conscious because I said to myself, “Oh boy, this dream is fun. Hope it doesn’t end.” And then somehow the impure images started…
Did I give in to sin with my free will if I wouldn’t have committed sin were I to be fully conscious?
Since the OT law said one is unclean after such an event, I feel like I shouldn’t go to Mass today. If mere consent to the thought of sin and obtaining carnal pleasure from the thought is equivalent to having committed the sin in real life, then I gave in to mortal sin…again.
Maybe it’s a sign that I’m spiritually weak in real life and that carries over to my lack of self-control and ruling over sinful dispositions in the sub-conscious realm.
Now I feel too ashamed to pray the set of prayers I normally pray. Maybe I’ll pray the 7 penitential psalms instead.
Did I give in to sin with my free will if I wouldn’t have committed sin were I to be fully conscious?
Since the OT law said one is unclean after such an event, I feel like I shouldn’t go to Mass today. If mere consent to the thought of sin and obtaining carnal pleasure from the thought is equivalent to having committed the sin in real life, then I gave in to mortal sin…again.
Maybe it’s a sign that I’m spiritually weak in real life and that carries over to my lack of self-control and ruling over sinful dispositions in the sub-conscious realm.
Now I feel too ashamed to pray the set of prayers I normally pray. Maybe I’ll pray the 7 penitential psalms instead.