Yes, without looking at the mercy of God, it does seem quite awful.
It may have been implicitly understood that on the little ones who had the age of reason were killed. And children may have gained the age of reason earlier in those days. But if you would rather believe in an abortionist God, that’s fine
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…therefore, kill EVERY male among the little ones could somehow be understood as excluding some of the aforementioned
every male among the little ones.
There is a reason that passages such as these aren’t easily dismissed. It shows God’s right over our lives and the lives of every created thing in gruesome detail. People point to the New Testament, saying ‘God is love’, but they choose to exclude almost entirely his justice.
If you feel bad that God had infants killed, how do you feel about God casting into hell those that opposed him? Read the New Testament. Jesus says that he will send people to hell. He will say, ‘depart from me, you accursed.’ He says, ‘bring my enemies here and slay them before me.’ He is merciful, but he is also JUST. His justice is not ours, either. God can do as he pleases, and no one can blame him. He’s God. That’s how it works. People like to replace ‘fear of God’ with ‘awe of God’. Fine, that’s reasonable. But what is ‘awe?’ Acknowledging God’s power, including the power to destroy us and send us to eternal perdition, is absolutely part of that.
But we must also remember his mercy. Perfect love casts out fear. If we trust in God, and strive to love him, he’s not going to cut us off. Trust is required of us, and perseverance in this trust. His justice is terrifying, but his mercy is boundless. Our lives could be miserable wrecks, but just like Lazarus (who was covered in sores and had essentially the most miserable existence one could fathom), we will be in His glory someday. The same is likely true for the children he ordered destroyed.
We can’t shape and mold God into our image. He’s not just a fluffy teddy bear. He’s also just. The problem comes when we get fixated on his justice over his mercy, and can’t comprehend it because we don’t realize his mercy is greater. These passages will always be difficult, but we have to remember it all in light of the cross and eternal life.