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lynnehelen
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I feel I am being called to choose between my faith and my enjoyment of cigarettes. After a lifetime of sometimes wild abuse of tobacco it is fitting that I should give it up. I know of an older lady who did so at my age after 30 years of tobacco use. Recently I experienced grace in the form of normal results on a lung capacity test when I had been given to understand that I already had emphysema.
However I am at risk for developing the disease and, after my bout with fear of death I realize I have much to live for and want to stick around. Also, obviously I wouldn’t give up my faith so the cigarettes will have to go.
This seems like an impossibility to me. I have smoked since I was 12, heavily on and off since I was 17. I can no longer financially afford to smoke heavily and neighbors have objected to my smoking. I am down to a pack a day.
I seems so pleasant to pray and believe and then take a cigarette break, and I understand that smoking in moderation is permitted according to the Catechism. After a lifetime of abuse, though, I don’t really tolerate the smoking well and I do understand that I need to give it up.
I prayed the Sacred Heart of Jesus for help. I think I’m scared, it’s been like a comforting lollipop all these years, a substitute for help that I do have now but I’m so accustomed to it I don’t know how to let it go. I love the thought of life without it but at the same time can’t imagine it and for private reasons I lack some other normal pleasures.
:bigyikes:
However I am at risk for developing the disease and, after my bout with fear of death I realize I have much to live for and want to stick around. Also, obviously I wouldn’t give up my faith so the cigarettes will have to go.
This seems like an impossibility to me. I have smoked since I was 12, heavily on and off since I was 17. I can no longer financially afford to smoke heavily and neighbors have objected to my smoking. I am down to a pack a day.
I seems so pleasant to pray and believe and then take a cigarette break, and I understand that smoking in moderation is permitted according to the Catechism. After a lifetime of abuse, though, I don’t really tolerate the smoking well and I do understand that I need to give it up.
I prayed the Sacred Heart of Jesus for help. I think I’m scared, it’s been like a comforting lollipop all these years, a substitute for help that I do have now but I’m so accustomed to it I don’t know how to let it go. I love the thought of life without it but at the same time can’t imagine it and for private reasons I lack some other normal pleasures.
:bigyikes:
