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megsdad
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This has been a memorable and special Lent for me. I made my first confession in about 30 years or so and have renewed my faith through daily prayer and occasional fasting. I have felt such a difference in my life, that I wanted to make a commitment to go to mass every weekday for a week during Lent to express thanks and devotion.
It was an amazing experience. By Thursday, I noticed that I was completely anxiety-free, stress-free, and was more patient with my family and coworkers. I’ve been just happier and nicer - is probably the easiest way to sum it up.
So, now I’m thinking maybe I should keep going, But, then I start all kinds of weird internal dialogues in my head about how I know I’ll never be able to make it every day, so maybe I should just “go when I can”, like a few times a week? But, that makes it sound like I’m only going when it’s convenient for me, which has to be bad.
And then I think, that if I keep going now I’d be going not to worship God but because I actually get something out of it (the anxiety reduction, etc). So, maybe I’ve cheapened it somehow?
And then there’s the whole notion that, I’ve gone from going to mass one or two Sundays a month to all of a sudden going everyday, My pastor must think I’m a nutcase. And worse, would God think I’m overcompensating or overdoing it now? That makes me feel totally unworthy to attend mass at all, daily or otherwise.
Or maybe I should just not think about any of these issues and just go?

It was an amazing experience. By Thursday, I noticed that I was completely anxiety-free, stress-free, and was more patient with my family and coworkers. I’ve been just happier and nicer - is probably the easiest way to sum it up.
So, now I’m thinking maybe I should keep going, But, then I start all kinds of weird internal dialogues in my head about how I know I’ll never be able to make it every day, so maybe I should just “go when I can”, like a few times a week? But, that makes it sound like I’m only going when it’s convenient for me, which has to be bad.
And then I think, that if I keep going now I’d be going not to worship God but because I actually get something out of it (the anxiety reduction, etc). So, maybe I’ve cheapened it somehow?
And then there’s the whole notion that, I’ve gone from going to mass one or two Sundays a month to all of a sudden going everyday, My pastor must think I’m a nutcase. And worse, would God think I’m overcompensating or overdoing it now? That makes me feel totally unworthy to attend mass at all, daily or otherwise.
Or maybe I should just not think about any of these issues and just go?
This is a wonderful thing keep it up. There was a period when I was younger I went to daily mass for quite awhile. Now because of age and travel and such it isn’t so easy but, I at least do the readings online or with the missal. Keep up the good work as long as you can. When I was going daily I went to confession because I made it everyday but, Sunday and the priest told me what I’m telling you now On judgement day, nobody will be saying Gee I wish I didn’t go to Mass so much or spend so much time with Jesus in the blessed sacrement in prayer. PS don’t stop after Easter since it’s a “lenten thing.”