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Her name is Emma, it was during a charismatic renewal meeting, and I feel like she is the answer to my prayers, I’ve only met her for a brief moment but absolutely loved her sweetheart, I mean I was on my own and she came expressly to meet me and give me company which I thought it was so sweet , but in the process I fell for her .
Now you might be wondering wether she felt the same way , and after careful examination of the moment, (and believe me I do not trust myself on this one , cause I have had so many disappointment in this area ), I think she might have .
Well, the thing is that ,like I said I only met her briefly, and we didn’t exchange numbers or anything like that ,
So yeah, I have no way of knowing what she was feeling ,or wether she feels the same way or not. Except for that the next day I kind of felt we had a hard time making eye contact.(even though I am not 100% sure she knew I was present already, adding more difficulty to my examination here),
I know why I was , something was telling me she was special , and I probably was afraid of the possibilities this could mean for me and for her . Changes basically, isn’t that a thing to be afraid of , I’m sure you will agree with me at least in part.
The other thing is that I am pretty sure she might have acknowledge my presence later on when she positioned behind me , again a couple of times I saw her , she wasn’t directly looking at me .
But…
, At the end of the meeting (I hope this isn’t boring you to death ) , I went over to her and coming from the back , I touched her arm and even she was at that time talking to someone else, she stopped completely the conversation , looked at me ,came a step closer and said my name in the most sweet of manners, it sounded kind of like a sweet sigh (suspiro In Spanish)So the last words I said to her, were I was hoping to come back next year, and as I don’t have anyway of contacting her , nor do I want to at this time ( I can elaborate more on this one).In any case since then , and it has just been what it seems and eternity (a week or two?) , I have been going through a rollercoaster of feelings and emotions ,
It started with a lot of hope, kind of ridiculously certain of the espectations ,passing through some. Doubts , and ending in fear and hopelessness.
The way I feel like know is the very familiar feeling(horrible) , that this is just God ,or Love ,or my
, or the big bang, telling me ; ok you go on with your dreams ,…I WILL CRASH THEM IN THE END!!!
But , …hummmm, and this is kind of the reason I post this cause I want to know if you can relate to this or not .
Very deep withing the most recondite corners of my heart , I am thankful for even the little bit of hope it has brought to my flat ,boring sometimes scary to live life.
Like , I don’t know what she is feeling , even though ,in my wildest dreams she could be THE ONE , the ANSWER TO MY PRAYERS , I can not forget her beautiful eyes , what is a year , it will pass very fast I am sure.
And even the odds seem to be ALL AGAINST ME .
I am thankful I met her , and I am thankful for the opportunity to grow , what do you guys feel about this
Now you might be wondering wether she felt the same way , and after careful examination of the moment, (and believe me I do not trust myself on this one , cause I have had so many disappointment in this area ), I think she might have .
Well, the thing is that ,like I said I only met her briefly, and we didn’t exchange numbers or anything like that ,
So yeah, I have no way of knowing what she was feeling ,or wether she feels the same way or not. Except for that the next day I kind of felt we had a hard time making eye contact.(even though I am not 100% sure she knew I was present already, adding more difficulty to my examination here),
I know why I was , something was telling me she was special , and I probably was afraid of the possibilities this could mean for me and for her . Changes basically, isn’t that a thing to be afraid of , I’m sure you will agree with me at least in part.
The other thing is that I am pretty sure she might have acknowledge my presence later on when she positioned behind me , again a couple of times I saw her , she wasn’t directly looking at me .
But…
, At the end of the meeting (I hope this isn’t boring you to death ) , I went over to her and coming from the back , I touched her arm and even she was at that time talking to someone else, she stopped completely the conversation , looked at me ,came a step closer and said my name in the most sweet of manners, it sounded kind of like a sweet sigh (suspiro In Spanish)So the last words I said to her, were I was hoping to come back next year, and as I don’t have anyway of contacting her , nor do I want to at this time ( I can elaborate more on this one).In any case since then , and it has just been what it seems and eternity (a week or two?) , I have been going through a rollercoaster of feelings and emotions ,It started with a lot of hope, kind of ridiculously certain of the espectations ,passing through some. Doubts , and ending in fear and hopelessness.
The way I feel like know is the very familiar feeling(horrible) , that this is just God ,or Love ,or my
, or the big bang, telling me ; ok you go on with your dreams ,…I WILL CRASH THEM IN THE END!!!But , …hummmm, and this is kind of the reason I post this cause I want to know if you can relate to this or not .
Very deep withing the most recondite corners of my heart , I am thankful for even the little bit of hope it has brought to my flat ,boring sometimes scary to live life.
Like , I don’t know what she is feeling , even though ,in my wildest dreams she could be THE ONE , the ANSWER TO MY PRAYERS , I can not forget her beautiful eyes , what is a year , it will pass very fast I am sure.
And even the odds seem to be ALL AGAINST ME .
I am thankful I met her , and I am thankful for the opportunity to grow , what do you guys feel about this
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