So Jesus Believers Help Me!

[Throwawayaccount1]

Is his memory always present to you’s? What’s it like to believe in him? How sure do you feel of it? It’s good, so I can remember believing so I know he’s the real deal, but sometimes I feel like I don’t. I don’t really know anything.

I’d say I don’t want to goto Hell but my life is already prettymuch Hell with schizophrenia. What’s up? I’d be like dead ass 100% sure, but I’m not, but I want to, and I thought that was good enough. What’s the matter with me? If I can’t believe, I just want to cause as few problems for Christians as possible and be a good person because I love my Dad to death and he helped me believe when I was a kid, and I remember how good it was.

Honestly I just live by the words, for I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, a stranger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, ill and you cared for me, in prison and you visited me. I figure if I’m constantly doing these kind of things for my brothers and sisters then it might help me, and it has. I’ve came to know how good it is to be generous and loving. I can’t play with 5 skateboards, but I can give 5 skateboards for other people to play with. I actually can’t ride a skateboard, but it would be cool to hear about someone doing it, or just not even know that they have it but figure they have it.

I try to keep the commandments to the best of my ability but I find myself in the same rut, doing the same things, and I feel dead.

I guess my problem is I don’t feel like I believe 99% of the time, but somewhere, somehow in my being, I hold fast to the fact that Jesus is God. But I don’t KNOW it.

Do I even qualify as a believer?

I DEFINITELY have Faith in God though. I’ve known about God my ENTIRE life.

 

[GioG12]

I have never heard of a religion called “ William32@1”.

 

[adamhovey1988]

It’s rare, only a single practitioner.

 

[po18guy]

You read about Him. Better yet, you can go and spend time in His presence. Find out when your local parish offers adoration of the Blessed Sacrament. Then go, and spend some time - and hour is perfect - in his presence.

Sit. Read the scriptures. Pray. Mostly just sit in silence and tell Him about your doubts. Be patient! and when you become aware that He is there…

…you will be changed.

 

[soontogo]

well there’s a lot to talk about.
first things first
you put your email under denominations(not to be joking around as a few others are)

first questions

“is his memory always present to you” well more than ever I have been thinking of the lord more, question is hard for me to translate

“what’s it like to believe in him” James 2:19" You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that-and shudder." what its like, joy, a feeling of love from gods grace. for those starting to believe it may not feel like much, but the more you know god, as taught by the church which he had created during the times of the apostles. then the more you will love god and feel joy even in the situation you find yourself. and the more you will serve him, bearing fruit for his kingdom to come here on earth as it is in Heaven

“how sure do you feel of it” well as the Israelites were in the desert 40 years, they remembered the meat, the vegetables and fruits. but forgot about there bondage. in the same way if we forget what god has done for us we forget our relationship with god. starting out, any one starting out, sometimes is unsure. but over time we become sure. patients is key here.

you haven’t listed your denomination so I’m going to assume your just budding in this faith

if you have not been baptized I (and I’m sure many people on this thread) will recommend that you become catholic. if there are things that strike you odd, things you have heard about the church, or any question about it. look for catholic apologetics .

I am a baptized Christian in another denomination, and as of now, am waiting for ordination. so If your already baptized and not catholic yet, welcome aboard.

as we wait we can still ask a priest for help, I’m sure he and many layman can help

if you have gotten this far @po18guy had suggested a bit you can do .

any more questions just ask.

peace

 

[MNathaniel]

my life is already prettymuch Hell with schizophrenia

It sounds like you would benefit from seeing a doctor and counsellor to help you with the ways that schizophrenia is making your life difficult. I hope you are already seeing a doctor/counsellor for assistance managing the symptoms of schizophrenia?

Regarding Christian belief, I’d recommend the scriptural prayer: “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” And please reach out to your local Catholic priest for help with the spiritual side of this “rut” you feel you’re “dead” in.

 

[fhansen]

While our connection with God can and should grow stronger as we sincerely seek Him, the sense of His presence from day to day changes, and is never perfectly complete and satisfying in this life. In the next life our knowledge of God-directly knowing Him-is fully accomplished:

“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” 1 Cor 13:12

 

[Lucy_1]

If you have schizophrenia, faith may be difficult for you. I would reach out to your local priest as @MNathaniel suggested. It sounds like you are trying to do the right things.

Honestly I just live by the words, for I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, a stranger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, ill and you cared for me, in prison and you visited me.

You can tell God about the struggles you are having with faith and ask him to help you. I like this prayer by Thomas Merton:

My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

 

[Throwawayaccount1]

Thanks for reassuring me.